Good for you man. I wish I was closer to my older gay cousin. As a child I knew his tea and he wasn't an obvious queer or anything but I just knew something was up. And growing up I noticed he disappeared and I was told that when my uncle and aunt (his mom) divorced, his mother made him turn on his father so he then turned his back on the family.... which is bullshit he was just disowned cuz he was a faggot. Jamaican familys can be something else I tell you. But eventually my mom confessed years fuckin later.
I wish I would have came to terms with my sexuality sooner so that I would be able to search, reach out and support and vice versa cause I've been going through shit too and wish I had my gay cousin to talk/look up to. But it's too late, I can't even find the niggaa on social media.