I have hella random shit to spew out so just a couple:
Recently the scariest shit in life to me has been the prospect of getting older/dying unfulfilled, unhappy, or unaware. We dont really notice when we are younger but there are dead ass millions of ppl who live day to day like zombies. Never getting to truly know themselves, never getting to figure out what/who makes them happy, never taking a chance to find these pieces of happiness, not finding a career that sustains them, and not being surrounded by ppl who really love you. Seeing the early signs of it with my peers. Scary.
The phd program i was starting next spring lost the chair and has turned into shit. Now im tryna find somewhere else to go because im feeling the pressure of time and reaching goals by a certain age.
A white guy sort of turned me in a straight club recently, someone come shame me!
Niggas really think (at this stage in life) that having good sex will carry them through life lolz.