Lew you can't speak to self esteem when you were very insecure about Iman and them categorizing your skin tone in a different hue category than you perceive it to be in.
Also if you were truly happily married for all the right reasons you could care less about what anyone here has to say. You disclose your mess because you are looking for a moment. Also when you get said moment you want to flip it and give a why is the spotlight on me mess.
Yes ppl can grow and change and that is a very slow proces of which you haven't exhibited any of it.
And even if you did manage to grow from your mess, part of that growth will be knowing you can't erase your past or expect ppl to overlook it. #EmbraceYourScars