Nikki talks about being raped twice by the same guy:
QuoteFormer WWE Divas Champion Nikki Bella opened up about her painful past in her memoir, Incomparable, which she wrote alongside her sister, Brie.
She revealed that she was raped by a fellow high school student she "thought was a friend," she said in the book. Then, at 16, she was raped again after being drugged by a college-age man.
"There is the horrible offense in the moment, and then the shame and blame that follow and feel almost worse than the original pain," she wrote in the book. "When something like this happens to you, you understand the blame-the-victim mentality, how easy it is to feel shame rather than anger, how easy it is to feel like you could have stopped it yourself."
While speaking to PEOPLE, she revealed why she hid it for so long:
"When that happened to me, I immediately just felt so ashamed and blamed myself, and that's what made me want to keep it such a secret. And keeping that a secret and blaming myself, I started to lose my confidence. I started to disrespect myself. And then the relationships I got into at a young age, I let other people disrespect me and felt like, that's okay, this is what I deserved.
I was like that for a really long time. I would go to therapy on and off. Looking at it now I'm like, 'Oh Nicole, I wish you just would've let go at a young age. So much would have changed for you.' And I think that's what made me really want to tell these stories finally.
When the #MeToo movement happened, I was just like, 'Oh my gosh, I feel like, if I'm having these younger women look up to me, maybe I can help them and have them not hold onto this as long as I did.
It wasn't until I was 28 and in a relationship where someone started to teach me how to respect myself. That's how long I held on to things and felt I had no boundaries. And I'd always look at Brie like, 'Oh, she has boundaries, she treats herself with such respect. How do I not have this?' And I knew why. But I held onto it for so long.
When I look back at just decisions I made based off of it, I wish I could have heard my words now as a 36-year-old woman then, and be like, 'You're going to be okay.'"
She plans to help younger females using her book:
"I hope whoever reads the book will throw on whatever imaginary cape they dream of and say, 'I'm the hero of my own story and will conquer whatever I want to do!'"
https://wwfoldschool.com/nikki-bella-says-she-was-raped-twice/And then goes on to this:
QuoteFormer WWE Divas Champion Nikki Bella talked about her past in her new book, Incomparable, which she wrote alongside her sister Brie.
In the book, she discussed her relationship with a WWE star who she was with, before she started dating John Cena. Although she didn't mention the name, it's obvious she's talking about Dolph Ziggler here:
"We can call this wrestler Brad. He was loud, and hilarious, and loved attention. After matches, we would all end up at the hotel bar, and he was always there to make everyone laugh, with a smart-a$$ joke for every occasion.
He would look at me in a certain way, knowing that it would make me feel a certain way — he knew exactly what he was doing. He teased me a lot, too, the way you tease a girl you like in third grade. And he would make himself challenging — every girl loves a challenge. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that Brad knew how to hook a girl. And then mind-f*ck her.
We started sleeping together, though that did not deter him from openly and aggressively flirting with other girls.
I loved having $ex with him, which only complicated matters. We had great chemistry in the bedroom, and he was still making me laugh. But he was a little cruel, too.
He thought very little about protecting my feelings. I think he thrived on that gray area, that middle ground, where I was constantly left questioning the boundaries of our relationship with a big 'What the hell are we?'"
She revealed that they settled into sort of an adult relationship for a year, until she saw messages on that wrestler's MySpace account from another woman.
"The messages were from one of my closest friends at WWE — a girl who had come to San Diego to see my family with me two nights before she apparently banged my man for the first time."
She went on to say that the two of them are still on good terms though.
https://wwfoldschool.com/nikki-bella-talks-about-wwe-star-cheating-on-her-with-one-of-her-closest-friends/
