I don't know if some of you guys remember my past stories. But way way waaaaay back around 2013, when I FIRST started messing and was real virginal or whatever, there was this one dude, whom I almost lost my job over and who really really really broke my heart. I described him as this big eyed Middle Eastern prince I think, well anyways... He has always been "the one that got away", and the only dude that gave me physical heartache, like I dreamt of nothing more but to be in his circle or become his friend one day but he really was a total asshole, I got him Beyonc? tickets and mess and he only used me for my connections... A year later I reached out again and gave him another amazing opportunity, and it turned out catastrophically and again I risked my livelihood, and he gave me nothing but shade. I even wrote a vile ass rap song about that fag, that is how I fumed. It took me forever to get over the all the MESS and DRAMA he pulled, plus he was like 7 years older... He had this magical and very intelligent vibe about him,
Fast forward to right now, I found this new guy, and we talk everyday and we have a really special connection. We are like best friends, but we are still romantic. He is exactly my age, and starts telling me about his ex one day, and his story sounds EXACTLY like mine, it was really eerie... Mind you this is 3 years later... He must have met him a few months later, than when I did. His ex boyfriend tried to get at him, when he was still inexperienced 19 y.o. uncertain of his sexuality, manipulative... But in his case, they actually DID get together, a year later, and were a couple for another one and a half years...
This is just MESS, his ex boyfriend, was in fact exactly that fag, that makes my heart skip a beat STILL, yet I am also in fumes when I think of that mischievously mysterious and intriguing faggot. But me and my new dude get along so well, like I never did, but when I see him, and hear his stories, I get clouded. Visions and thoughts of the 2013 nig take up the space in my mind. He tells me backstories, exclusive behind the scenes personal stuff of the fag whom I never been able to really get close to, and he actually did. And that made my heart race almost as much as just being with the new guy, hearing all the tea was so thrilling. Now I sometimes I think I just want to be the new guy's boyfriend to bump into the other fag and let some mess unravel... But then again, I feel like some scorned bitch who banded together with another scorned bitch to form a team mess... You know we are besties, and you did us both wrong ha! ha!
And I don't want to give this fagg all that either. fckn sand nigger
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And the new guy is sooo sweet and nice, and so damn pretty, and he really cares for me. But I don't know if I am in it just for the MESS. I want to fucking see what happens, when we see ha, his ex. I have told the new guy, that I was involved with his ex, but not that I actually have feelings for him STILL, which is even crazy to me, because it has been years that I last saw him, and we were never a thing, it kinda is just unfinished business...
Guys this new dude is so great, I am thinking about introducing ha to my whole extended family, and making it official on FB and mess, but also a part of me is only dating him to SNEAK into that old fag's life and get a little ROUND TWO mess in. Low key I am also not jealous per se, but kinda intrigued, about what HE had, that they together turned into Bonnie & Clyde, and I was just the old fag's playball. I just KNOW all this will end disastrously, like it always does between me and old guy, but every interaction with him feels like a movie, and makes anything else seem bland and trivial. I kinda live for the mess THRILL, am I a masochist, or just in love, or is it just the unfinished business. And what about my new dude, who makes me smile inside everytime he messages me. Ugh he tells me g'nite and g'morn everyday, and I live.
I don't even need a response, just wanted to let some mess owt.
Ugh this is like a soap opera, what are the damn chances?
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I think you knew your new guy was your old guys ex... this is all a bit fish' to be honest!
but if you want some advice, you need to drop them both and move the fuck on
Just be the messy bitch that you are and use your new guy to get close to the old one.
Quote from: Gilgamesh. on March 21, 2016, 07:13:00 PM
Just be the messy bitch that you are and use your new guy to get close to the old one.
MVCVNMNCCCVBNNMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
Quote from: DWAYNE on March 21, 2016, 07:13:50 PM
Quote from: Gilgamesh. on March 21, 2016, 07:13:00 PM
Just be the messy bitch that you are and use your new guy to get close to the old one.
MVCVNMNCCCVBNNMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
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Quote from: Gilgamesh. on March 21, 2016, 07:13:00 PM
Just be the messy bitch that you are and use your new guy to get close to the old one.
Tbh. That's clearly what you really wanna do.
Quote from: yekim on March 21, 2016, 07:08:40 PM
I think you knew your new guy was your old guys ex... this is all a bit fish' to be honest!
but if you want some advice, you need to drop them both and move the fuck on
I honestly didn't, I found out later into us dating... Maybe subconsciously I felt something, but I really did not know.
Quotebut also a part of me is only dating him to SNEAK into that old fag's life and get a little ROUND TWO mess in
this sums it all up
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boy, just dump the fag you're with now cause clearly its not everything you think it is.
Quote from: GRAND SUPREME DIETRICH III on March 22, 2016, 03:12:32 AM
Quotebut also a part of me is only dating him to SNEAK into that old fag's life and get a little ROUND TWO mess in
this sums it all up
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boy, just dump the fag you're with now cause clearly its not everything you think it is.
nnnmmmm not "a part of me"
Malc' girl. u aren't into this current guy ur with at all :dead: sounds like you just appreciate him for being sweet and giving you the attention
Quote from: RekeRocka on March 22, 2016, 07:27:04 AM
Quote from: GRAND SUPREME DIETRICH III on March 22, 2016, 03:12:32 AM
Quotebut also a part of me is only dating him to SNEAK into that old fag's life and get a little ROUND TWO mess in
this sums it all up
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boy, just dump the fag you're with now cause clearly its not everything you think it is.
nnnmmmm not "a part of me"
Malc' girl. u aren't into this current guy ur with at all :dead: sounds like you just appreciate him for being sweet and giving you the attention
:plzstop:
vvvvv Torn! Letoya!
Quote from: RekeRocka on March 22, 2016, 08:11:36 AM
vvvvv Torn! Letoya!
nbnnn I honestly am though!!
New guy is sooooo sweet and I love spending time with him. :wub:
Quote from: Gilgamesh. on March 21, 2016, 07:13:00 PM
Just be the messy bitch that you are and use your new guy to get close to the old one.
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u kn wh...
I mean iono it just gives me such BLISS and excitement thinking of all the MESS and commotion dazz bout to go down
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Quote from: yekim on March 21, 2016, 07:08:40 PM
I think you knew your new guy was your old guys ex... this is all a bit fish' to be honest!
but if you want some advice, you need to drop them both and move the fuck on
That is honestly the best advice.
But I just cannot resist. I know it is an impending train wreck, and I don't want to stop it from happening.
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Quote from: Rajesha on March 21, 2016, 06:30:43 PM
I got him Beyonc? tickets and mess and he only used me for my connections... A year later I reached out again and gave him another amazing opportunity,
hey hun,
can you PM me? I have an artist and I may need your connections.
(all jokes aside tho, PM me plz)... :dead:
ok, let me continue reading.
:sobusyjetsetter:
Quote from: RekeRocka on March 22, 2016, 07:27:04 AM
Quote from: GRAND SUPREME DIETRICH III on March 22, 2016, 03:12:32 AM
Quotebut also a part of me is only dating him to SNEAK into that old fag's life and get a little ROUND TWO mess in
this sums it all up
:dead: :dead: :dead: :dead:
boy, just dump the fag you're with now cause clearly its not everything you think it is.
nnnmmmm not "a part of me"
Malc' girl. u aren't into this current guy ur with at all :dead: sounds like you just appreciate him for being sweet and giving you the attention
!!!!!!
:dead:
Slay malc
Quote from: Rajesha on March 22, 2016, 01:10:46 PM
Quote from: RekeRocka on March 22, 2016, 08:11:36 AM
vvvvv Torn! Letoya!
nbnnn I honestly am though!!
New guy is sooooo sweet and I love spending time with him. :wub:
hhhhhhg I'm sure they're both kinda foine 👀
Quote from: RekeRocka on March 22, 2016, 01:54:51 PM
Quote from: Rajesha on March 22, 2016, 01:10:46 PM
Quote from: RekeRocka on March 22, 2016, 08:11:36 AM
vvvvv Torn! Letoya!
nbnnn I honestly am though!!
New guy is sooooo sweet and I love spending time with him. :wub:
hhhhhhg I'm sure they're both kinda foine 👀
OOOOOF ACK!! it's a fckn problem... ugh irf knows my taste.
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Sounds like you're only talking to this new guy for pure mess.. I don't see the problem with it.
:raycharles2urmess:
This is becoming edgier by the day. We still talk everyday, and went out today, it was beautiful we were at a museum, but it kinda became clear to me when he couldn't name cities that start with B in a quiz game - I know it is banal, but it kinda struck... I know he is not the one...
We do bond amazingly and basically talk all day... But I don't know, this relationship I have with new guy is starting to get draining somehow... It is so much for my soul right now... I just haven't been feeling super confident lately and also I have never been in a proper relationship, and he has... This makes me feel somewhat emotionally inferior, and I keep my guard up and I am very hesitant with showing too much affection... When usually I give a bit of seductress, but he makes me all meek and weird...
This whole thing is starting to scare me, I leave and feel emotionally charged and confused. I don't think I love him, but he throws me off balance and makes the rest of my life seem irrelevant, when my studies and my career should be my focus right now... I think of him, and then I also think of his ex, then I think of him again... I think about how if I got closer I'd hang with all the people, the old guy did, and it feeling weird and perverted as fuck...
I don't know how to put it, but having to think about always looking and smelling sexy, making sure we have nice dates, chatting with him - even though everything is going smoothly - also it intimidates me, because it could all go and start fizzling and by that point, I might not want it to... Ugh being single it is so much easier, I can eat whenever, I can wear whatever... I don't have to second think anything...
Then also I steel get the FEELS when I think about old guy... New guy and me are FB friends now, after dating for a few weeks, and I saw a pic of them both looking scrumptiously gorgeous all boo'd up in Milano in his feed, it fucking felt like PUNCH in my gut...
Listening to Radiohead's Creep made me tear up a bit, then Jo's Boy without heart did it to me too, this old guy truly, truly, truly hurt me to the core, like deep down in my heart. Ugh... I want to be calculated and just keep the mess going, but it is already affecting me and making me melancholic when I should be worried and focused about other stuff...
What if we go further and after a few months he goes back to his ex. And they end up together kii kii cackling about me, that would CRUSH me to the core... But then again a small part of me just wants to test the waters and EXPERIENCE something...
However right now, even though new guy is adorable, I feel like just backing out and leaving it alone... Love should be fun right?
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luh u malc
Quote from: Gilgamesh. on March 21, 2016, 07:13:00 PM
Just be the messy bitch that you are and use your new guy to get close to the old one.
jjjhdhfbbbbbxnnnn
What the hell? :omgwatshappening:
Quote from: RekeRocka on March 22, 2016, 08:11:36 AM
vvvvv Torn! Letoya!
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What is with you fckin people?!
Quote from: NexTae on March 27, 2016, 07:10:16 PM
Quote from: Gilgamesh. on March 21, 2016, 07:13:00 PM
Just be the messy bitch that you are and use your new guy to get close to the old one.
jjjhdhfbbbbbxnnnn
What the hell? :omgwatshappening:
that one actually hurt
Quote from: Rajesha on March 27, 2016, 06:58:28 PM
This is becoming edgier by the day. We still talk everyday, and went out today, it was beautiful we were at a museum, but it kinda became clear to me when he couldn't name cities that start with B in a quiz game - I know it is banal, but it kinda struck... I know he is not the one...
We do bond amazingly and basically talk all day... But I don't know, this relationship I have with new guy is starting to get draining somehow... It is so much for my soul right now... I just haven't been feeling super confident lately and also I have never been in a proper relationship, and he has... This makes me feel somewhat emotionally inferior, and I keep my guard up and I am very hesitant with showing too much affection... When usually I give a bit of seductress, but he makes me all meek and weird...
This whole thing is starting to scare me, I leave and feel emotionally charged and confused. I don't think I love him, but he throws me off balance and makes the rest of my life seem irrelevant, when my studies and my career should be my focus right now... I think of him, and then I also think of his sex, then I think of him again... I think about how if I got closer I'd hang with all the people, the old guy did, and it feeling weird and perverted as fuck...
I don't know how to put it, but having to think about always looking and smelling sexy, making sure we have nice dates, chatting with him - even though everything is going smoothly - also it intimidates me, because it could all go and start fizzling and by that point, I might not want it to... Ugh being single it is so much easier, I can eat whenever, I can wear whatever... I don't have to second think anything...
Then also I steel get the FEELS when I think about old guy... New guy and me are FB friends now, after dating for a few weeks, and I saw a pic of them both looking scrumptiously gorgeous all boo'd up in Milano in his feed, it fucking felt like PUNCH in my gut...
Listening to Radiohead's Creep made me tear up a bit, then Jo's Boy without heart did it to me too, this old guy truly, truly, truly hurt me to the core, like deep down in my heart. Ugh... I want to be calculated and just keep the mess going, but it is already affecting me and making me melancholic when I should be worried and focused about other stuff...
What if we go further and after a few months he goes back to his ex. And they end up together kii kii cackling about me, that would CRUSH me to the core... But then again a small part of me just wants to test the waters and EXPERIENCE something...
However right now, even though new guy is adorable, I feel like just backing out and leaving it alone... Love should be fun right?
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v
Quote from: BowDown on March 22, 2016, 02:03:30 PM
Sounds like you're only talking to this new guy for pure mess.. I don't see the problem with it.
:raycharles2urmess:
I don't think I am strong enough.
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Quote from: RekeRocka on March 22, 2016, 08:11:36 AM
vvvvv Torn! Letoya!
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ya got meh so toooooorn-ho! whew oh my god :bvy:
this is way too much cant find a place to start
Quote from: Aalonso on March 27, 2016, 07:20:48 PM
this is way too much cant find a place to start
It is a hot mess.
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