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Title: I don't know how to title this
Post by: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 01:35:54 PM
So I just found out that one of my friends died a few days ago. I hadn't heard from him in a few days and started to get worried. I think he may have passed the day we last talked. He had health problems and was recently admitted to the hospital but was released and resting back at home.

Again I hadn't heard from him in a few days so I was getting really worried and feared the worst. At first I thought I was just paranoid so I let it go but it was really bothering me so I decided to hit one of his friends up and sure enough they told me what had happened. He was surprised no one had told me but I don't really associated with any of his friends and his family and I aren't on the best of terms.

What's so strange about this is that I feel so empty right now. Like I don't know how to feel.
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Post by: 🦚 on February 09, 2019, 01:43:55 PM
Same shit (sorta) happened to me.

My friend went mia / off the radar. Last time we hung out he finally told me he was battling the big C. 

I wish I could?ve been there more. I just hate that his last days were probably really lonely.
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Post by: CREAM. on February 09, 2019, 01:44:50 PM
Awww I?m sorry to hear that.

I?m assuming you reached out to him, he didn?t respond and then you started to get worried and contacted his friend?

I?ve never lost any friends so I don?t really know what to say.
Just try to take it easy. Keep yourself busy! Don?t internalize.
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Post by: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 01:49:16 PM
I literally just talked to him Feb 1st and he died the next day. I hate I couldn't be there with him. I hope he wasn't alone.

And the fact that his funeral already started today and I couldn't be there is fucked up.
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Post by: Kurama on February 09, 2019, 01:50:17 PM
Sorry to hear that Drain. This happened to me 2 months ago, learned a guy i used to date passed. Dealing with death unexpectedly, especially while so young, is really tough. No one really has a rulebook on grief and loss.

I hope you take some time to yourself to explore your feelings entirely. Im glad you felt comfortable enough sharing this with us to, definitely reach out if you need anything.
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Post by: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 01:53:52 PM
I know we kii and mess but I'm hurt as fuck
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Post by: RAY7 on February 09, 2019, 01:55:45 PM
My condolences to you and his family and loved ones
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Post by: Lazarus on February 09, 2019, 01:58:41 PM
Quote from: ZAIYE on February 09, 2019, 01:57:56 PM
Quote from: 12 Nights of Molesting Flopped on February 09, 2019, 01:55:45 PM
My condolences to you and his family and loved ones
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Post by: Pearls Khan on February 09, 2019, 02:05:23 PM
Quote from: 12 Nights of Molesting Flopped on February 09, 2019, 01:55:45 PM
My condolences to you and his family and loved ones
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Post by: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 02:07:51 PM
Thanks y'all

I'm so confused
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Post by: yummy on February 09, 2019, 02:09:14 PM
Quote from: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 01:53:52 PM
I know we kii and mess but I'm hurt as fuck

I'm sorry sis

Just lemme know what I can do to help

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Post by: Nine on February 09, 2019, 02:09:20 PM
I'm sorry bby.

Sending my love <3

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Post by: Joyce Grace on February 09, 2019, 02:10:54 PM
<333

txt me if u wann' babes
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Post by: Admin on February 09, 2019, 02:15:13 PM
Aww I'm so sorry for your loss :-(
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Post by: Cartierline on February 09, 2019, 02:15:45 PM
Oh no Drais..

So sorry to hear this and for your loss.
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Post by: Gilgamesh. on February 09, 2019, 02:16:46 PM
Sorry to hear that Drais.
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Post by: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 02:27:31 PM
this shit sucks
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Post by: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 02:28:54 PM
and my birthday is in a few days. this is wack
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Post by: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 05:00:50 PM
so i found his info online about his death which included the church where the funeral would be held etc

i drove up there hoping to at least get an obituary but i was surprised that all of his family and friends were still there. looks like i had just missed it. met with his family and broke down in tears. i'm glad they embraced me. i even got an obituary and the contact info of his family so we can keep in touch

being in that atmosphere really confirmed that he was officially gone but at least i was able to have a little bit of this moment. still sad as fuck but at at the same time i feel better
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Post by: Vonc2002 on February 09, 2019, 05:02:39 PM
Omg drais im sorry for your loss.  I can't imagine
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Post by: Vonc2002 on February 09, 2019, 05:03:21 PM
Quote from: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 01:49:16 PM
I literally just talked to him Feb 1st and he died the next day. I hate I couldn't be there with him. I hope he wasn't alone.

And the fact that his funeral already started today and I couldn't be there is fucked up.
Omg
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Post by: yummy on February 09, 2019, 05:03:31 PM
Quote from: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 05:00:50 PM
so i found his info online about his death which included the church where the funeral would be held etc

i drove up there hoping to at least get an obituary but i was surprised that all of his family and friends were still there. looks like i had just missed it. met with his family and broke down in tears. i'm glad they embraced me. i even got an obituary and the contact info of his family so we can keep in touch

being in that atmosphere really confirmed that he was officially gone but at least i was able to have a little bit of this moment. still sad as fuck but at at the same time i feel better

That moment of closure with his family sounds beautiful

The memories and that last bit of closure are the most important things to hold onto  :wub:
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Post by: Vonc2002 on February 09, 2019, 05:03:59 PM
Quote from: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 01:53:52 PM
I know we kii and mess but I'm hurt as fuck
Baby :'(
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Post by: Kalifornia. on February 09, 2019, 05:04:00 PM
I?m so sorry hon. Sending lots of love & condolences

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Post by: Kalifornia. on February 09, 2019, 05:06:47 PM
Quote from: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 05:00:50 PM
so i found his info online about his death which included the church where the funeral would be held etc

i drove up there hoping to at least get an obituary but i was surprised that all of his family and friends were still there. looks like i had just missed it. met with his family and broke down in tears. i'm glad they embraced me. i even got an obituary and the contact info of his family so we can keep in touch

being in that atmosphere really confirmed that he was officially gone but at least i was able to have a little bit of this moment. still sad as fuck but at at the same time i feel better

You were able to have a bit of closure, which is very important.

All of this kind of hit you out of nowhere. That makes it harder to accept.
So I?m glad you were able to have that moment with his family.
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Post by: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 05:07:13 PM
my friend is really gone, and he was so young.

my time ive cried in years. still crying

i guess im not as emotionally unavailable as i thought i was
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Post by: Vonc2002 on February 09, 2019, 05:08:50 PM
Quote from: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 05:07:13 PM
my friend is really gone, and he was so young.

How old was he?  :'(
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Post by: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 05:09:17 PM
He was 30.

His sister in law said they got to the hospital around 7pm and waited three hours and then the doctors finally told him he passed.

Me and him were literally talking that same day. We last talked around 6:45pm so after that he pretty much passed within the next 3 hours. I might've been the last person he talked to.

The fact that I found this out the exact same time his funeral started and was able to find his info and make it up there to meet with the family is really crazy to me. i feel somewhat happy
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Post by: GLOCK on February 09, 2019, 05:09:22 PM
I?m sorry bro
Here if you need me
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Post by: GLOCK on February 09, 2019, 05:11:31 PM
Quote from: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 05:09:17 PM
He was 30.

His sister in law said they got to the hospital around 7pm and waited three hours and then the doctors finally told him he passed.

Me and him were literally talking that same day. We last talked around 6:45pm so after that he pretty much passed within the next 3 hours. I might've been the last person he talked to.

The fact that I found this out the exact same time his funeral started and was able to find his info and make it up there to meet with the family is really crazy to me. i feel somewhat happy
this is like a movie
It?s almost like his spirit lead u there
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Post by: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 05:15:22 PM
im gonna talk to his sister in law in a few days and get her to confirm some things for me

he told me was released from the hospital and feeling better but i wonder was that the truth or was he still in the hospital the entire time? maybe he didn't want me to know how bad his health was and didn't want me to worry. i noticed he was very dodgy when i was asking him alot of questions.

if this is true it just reminds me of how amazing and selfless he is. he's always thinking of others and how they feel before himself.

i just hope he wasn't in any pain
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Post by: LOONA. on February 09, 2019, 05:45:56 PM
i really appreciate everything y'all saying forreal. meeting with his family really helped me alot. im gonna go visit his grave tomorrow
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Post by: ❄️☃️🌨� Shuji Feels Different 🌨�☃️❄️ on February 09, 2019, 08:09:42 PM
Sending love and positivity your way Drais. Hope you're able to process your emotions and not internalize them. May his soul R.I.P.
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Post by: b7 on February 09, 2019, 08:21:31 PM
Quote from: CREAM. on February 09, 2019, 01:44:50 PM
Awww I?m sorry to hear that.

I?m assuming you reached out to him, he didn?t respond and then you started to get worried and contacted his friend?

I?ve never lost any friends so I don?t really know what to say.
Just try to take it easy. Keep yourself busy! Don?t internalize.
!!!!! Internalizing is so dangerous. Keep venting when you can, let out ur emotions. It?s so healthy to cry when you feel it
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Post by: FlowerBomb on February 09, 2019, 08:24:06 PM
That is really sad.
Glad you had closure with his family
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Post by: Jon on February 09, 2019, 08:46:21 PM
Sorry for your loss. I'm glad you got some type of closure.
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Post by: MelMel on February 10, 2019, 05:13:09 AM
I'm so sorry bby!!!!!! sending you some love right now
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Post by: Hatsumomo on February 10, 2019, 06:31:16 AM
So sorry to hear about your loss Drais. There is nothing anyone can say to ease the pain and this is something no one can just get over. Allow yourself to experience the stages of grief, because in the end, it will make you stronger so that you'll be able to help the next person who experiences a loss.  You can find so much comfort in knowing you are now in a position to help others find peace who are going through something similar.  There is more happiness in giving. Death is a vicious enemy that we cannot beat. We only learn to cope with it better over time and you certainly aren't alone. We all are in a dying state in this world.. So the pain and the loss is and will felt by all of us eventually. And I truly believe you'll see your friend again one day. On the other side.
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Post by: LOONA. on February 10, 2019, 09:43:06 AM
thanks guys

visited his grave today after getting off work. seeing his resting place really overwhelmed me. like he's really gone.

i'm going back to visit him on my bday next week. i'm never gonna see my friend again. this is wild