Well, I lost my older brother on Halloween. I feel like my grip on the world is going through a bit of an adjustment. He was my first friend in this world. It's crazy that he's literally gone. I'm definitely in seclusion mode right now. I feel like nothing will ever be the same again, in the sense that everything is now tarnished. You can clean up a mess or reset bones and such. But, you can't rewind the clock and undo the situation. I don't think i'll ever be the person I was or even want to. The healing process will be lifelong. The damage can never be reversed.
If anyone wants to share their experience dealing and coping with sudden loss, I'd love to read it.