I've grown to love my morbid/weird vibe & humor as well as the way I communicate. Also the way I build friendships by being territorial and passionate about ppl I value.
I think being morbid and such began when I was younger cause I really didn't have any friends and I didn't like my family. So I would find sancuary in video games, fantasy books, and anime. I'd be BARRED up in room imagining shit and just escaping into my own little world. Although I made friends in high school I still kept that vibe. I still use the same things heavily to cope when stressed out or when I need to retreat from the world.
Being territorial just came natural once I really valued someone or something. I wanted them to value me as the same and to see how much I cared for them and how unlikely it would be for them to find something similar. Plus im a canc'.