PART 1WHEW bitch, its been close to 3 years since this mess initially jumped down.
honestly I stopped posting shit because.... there was no "stories" to tell per say and then also real life started hitting us and I really didnt think we was gonna make it for a while... so I just briefly mentioned him or if he was on my account sometimes he would speak but yeah.... scary times, my love.
As you know from the update part in 2017 like middle of Aprilish, Matt and I moved in together and we got pitbull puppy named "Trix" like in June . Its a boy but I named him after Tricks from the players club...
one of my favorite movies
anyway, living with Matt was not bad at all. but we decided to move out of his condo which was one bedroom into a 3 bedroom so that we could have more space because the one bedroom was wayyyyy to small for us and the dog.
we got a bigger place in like October and then... Matt got into a car accident and messed up his hands, as you know he's a Barber. so yeah... his income basically stopped. the bills basically fell on me.. which is what really "matured" our relationship, it was after that that I truly realized honeymoon phase was over and we BOTH had to strap up our boots and work to try and save our relationship. At this time I was in 2 online classes, working 2 jobs & playing counselor to Matt through his recovery. The crazy thing about cutting hair, you don't really realize how cut throat it is until you're unable to work. the income just stopped, some of his clients moved on in his 2 months of recovery and it was just an overall weird phase of cutting back to try and make ends meet. which was not a problem ever before. Matt paid the major bills and his car note and I covered the small bills like light, our cell phone bills & my car note. Matt also took care of the "play" money.. so date money, travel money and just splurge money. we had a good system. but it came tumbling tf downe. even when he started working again, he couldnt cut for as long, and he had to basically build up his clientele again. so I would say we were off track until about April 2018. in this time we were arguing a lot about him feel neglected, but a bitch was busy... I had to make the money, which I had no problem but after working 2 jobs and doing school work 5 days out of the week, my sex drive was low and I didn't really feel like going out for dates... I wanted to sleep more than anything. nigga was really tryna fuck with half functioning hands.
im used to be tossed around and picked up and choked... yeah that shit was on a stand still.. when we did have sex, I had to pull out all my tricks to make it what we was use to. so he was enjoying it but because I was working hard as shit... I like to see him pleasured, I get pleasure out of that but I wasn't getting what I was use to. which wasn't a big deal because I knew the situation but he still wanted to fuck like 2,3 times a week like normal.... as I said a bitch was TIYAAADD. lol so... a man who's ego is bruised from not being able to work, can't have sex as much as he wants, and has to be taken care of for a bit.... equation for disaster lol.
more specifically we got into a huge argument over my coworker, who dropped me off at home.
so lets call the co worker James... James was gay. When I got my newer second job in June 2018 I came home on the like 3rd day and was like....
"BABBBBEE!!! Guess what?!?"
matt's nonchalant ass: "Wassup?" -he was watching some dumb ass sports game, so he was paying attention but not fully.-
me: "I have a gay co worker!! I love this job already!! I can't wait to go back tomorrow!"
now he must've heard.. "I have this sexy ass gay co worker, I love his ass! I can't wait to see him tomorrow!" because the tv muted and I look up from my MacBook in the kitchen and this is Matt...
so he like... "what's his name?, what's he like?, do he gotta boyfriend? where he from?"
so I answer the his questions and he got this look on his face like... idk kinda like "This is some new shit, I hope I can really trust you." that's how I read it at least he didn't say much but I basically got what I wanted for the rest of the night so... hey I took it.
fast forward to like July.. I was taking the train to work. so Matt would drop me off at the train then go cut and pick me up at the end of the day. Well this day we were having team meeting/ outing.. so when I found out the plans, I texted Matt to let him know he didn't have to come get me from the train, we were going to a restaurant, I told him when we were finishing up I would call/ text him and he could get me from there... Matt first question, "who all going?" so I told him... originally it me, James, 5 other people from the job. so he was like alright cool. low-key I think Matt was looking for a reason to meet James anyway to kinda scope him out.. he denies but.. I really dont feel like im wrong.
I must have some luck with dinners. because I get there and we sitting down and peoples wives and husbands start coming.. so what I thought was a strict business team meeting, really turned out to be "lets get to know each other outside of work and get fucked up" dinner... so im irritated because as I've said a bitch be TIYYYAADD I would've rather went the fuck home.. I came to the dinner with notes, plans, ideas and all types of other shit to go over and it wasn't that type of party. so James whispers to me.."Did you know they was bringing all these people?" so im like "absolutely not or I would have not been here."
so he say.. "well are you gonna call your guy and tell him to come?"
me: "no, I dont really mix my personal life up with my work life. and ion really think he would be interested in coming now at this point."
cool so we wrapping up and I text Matt. so I told James that I would be leaving soon because my ride was coming.. *I told him this because we were mainly talking to each other because we were the only ones without guest. I didn't know if he was getting picked up or taking transportation, so I told him so that I wouldn't just be leaving him there by himself to be the extra wheel and he could make provisions so we could leave at the same time*
matt texts me says he's outside... so at this point I tell James "okay... im out, ill see you Monday."
im walking to the truck and I thought James was behind me because we were leaving at the same time.... no I went to get in the truck and all I hear is.... "Hi im James nice to meet you!!!" so I turn around and im startled because I thought he was gone from behind me at this point. so im like...'Boy, what the hell"
Matt reaches over and shakes his hand and is like.. "Nice to meet you man! how you liking the new gig?!?"
James: "I love it!! me and my bestie be in there cracking up all day..."
so im lost.... like ohhhh he alluding to me.. idk what's up with that shit, how im just your best friend all of sudden?? we aint had no convo about that
Matt laughing cuz he see im lost as fuck..but I let him have it because James is new to town. so im like constantly saying okay ill see you Monday because low-key Matt looked good asf and I was tryna get him home while was still in the mood. lmfao so James like..."oop, where y'all rushing off too?" so I say.. "im tryna spend some time with my nigga." and then I shoot Matt the eyes so he know im with the bullshit tonight.'
James annoying ass gon say..."well you couldve told him to come here for dinner but you said naw.. everybody else had they people here."
so im looking him like...
matt: "ohhh, so this wasn't a business meeting?"
James:"Chile hell nah, we aint talk about shit dealing with that damn company. but I took care of him we was good" *I cringed* cuz im like wtf you mean you took care of me? I paid for my own shit, we only talked but im more than capable of talking to the others
I can tell Matt is annoyed now because its like James was doing too much and trying to allude to us getting close.
on the car ride home we talk about it. and Matt is like.."you dont think its weird that you dont be having time to go out with me but you went out with your colleagues and sorta lied about it."
once I explain to him the situation and acknowledge that I could do better as far as me and him going on dates... he was cool but was just like ..."hold up, then why ol boy explain it like that, why he try to make it seem like you knew the set up before you got there? and what he mean he took care of you, you didn't have enough money for your bill or something" im like... "I have no fucking clue why he said it like that... and I paid for my own stuff so I guess he meant like he made sure I wasn't by myself.. I really dont know."
Matt: yeah, ion like his ass. dont really know what it is but... I aint really feeling dude at all be careful around him. He a lil slippery.
slippery means sketchy.. its some shit Matt and his friends use, dont ask me why... I dont fucking know... but that it for now
