When he arrived at Spacey's apartment, Rapp quickly realized that he was the only nonadult there ? which, again, did not worry him, since he so often had found himself in similar situations as a child actor. The bigger issue: "I didn't know anyone," he said. "And I was quickly kind of bored."
Rapp said he ended up wandering into the bedroom, sitting on the edge of the bed, and watching TV well past midnight.
"I was aware that he was trying to get with me sexually.?
At some point, Rapp said he turned to see Spacey standing at the bedroom door. And that's when he first realized that everyone else had left the party. They were alone.
?My memory was that I thought, Oh, everybody's gone. Well, yeah, I should probably go home,? Rapp said. Spacey, he recalled, ?sort of stood in the doorway, kind of swaying. My impression when he came in the room was that he was drunk.? Rapp doesn't remember Spacey saying anything to him. Instead, Rapp said, ?He picked me up like a groom picks up the bride over the threshold. But I don't, like, squirm away initially, because I'm like, 'What's going on?' And then he lays down on top of me.?
?He was trying to seduce me,? Rapp said. ?I don't know if I would have used that language. But I was aware that he was trying to get with me sexually.?
Rapp recalled this all happening ? Spacey appearing at the door, coming into the room, picking him up, and putting him on the bed ? in one clumsy action, with Spacey landing at a slight angle on top of him. He said Spacey ?was, like, pressing into me,? and that he remembers Spacey ?tightening his arms.? But while he can't recall exactly how long Spacey remained on top of him, Rapp said he was able to ?squirm? away after a short period.
?It was a frozen moment. In terms of fight or flight or freeze, I tend to freeze.?
?It was a frozen moment,? Rapp said of the entire encounter, with a deep, exasperated sigh. ?In terms of fight or flight or freeze, I tend to freeze.?
After pushing Spacey off him, Rapp remembered he was able to step into the bathroom and close the door. "I was like, 'What is happening?'? he said. ?I saw on the counter next to the sink a picture of him having his arm around a man. So I think on some level I was like, Oh. He's gay. I guess. Then I opened the door, and I was like, 'OK, I'm going to go home now.' He followed me to the front door of the apartment, and as I opened the door to leave, he was leaning on the front door[frame]. And he was like, 'Are you sure you wanna go?' I said, 'Yes, good night,' and then I did leave."
As he walked home, ?My head was spinning,? Rapp said. ?I have a memory of turning around and [thinking], What was that? What am I supposed to do with it? What does it mean??
He paused. "The older I get, and the more I know, I feel very fortunate that something worse didn't happen," he said. "And at the same time, the older I get, the more I can't believe it. I could never imagine [that] anyone else I know would do something like that to a 14-year-old boy."
https://www.buzzfeed.com/adambvary/anthony-rapp-kevin-spacey-made-sexual-advance-when-i-was-14?utm_term=.kv3y9mEJ1Kevin's response to the MESS:
https://twitter.com/KevinSpacey/status/924848412842971136?
