My last relationship i ended up being with someone who made me second guess my judgement a lot. He was very low key. He lied about a lot of things when we first began dating and I didnt find out until a year in. Didnt have any solid proof of him fuckin other ppl and he swore he didn't but I was always skeptical.
Im always up front about how i am and what i need in any relationship, just be straight up and everything else is fixable. He manipulated me and had me thinking we were cut from the same cloth, when we really werent.
It was the classic "slut into a housewife" type of thing. The whole time i had to suffer the problematic shit he did as he tried to figure himself out and become better. Very selfish and felt like i should do it cuz he thought he was worth it (most shitty niggas do).
Anyway, i think i spoke about this but i understood a lot of his issues. Just seeing himself as a sexual being, no one caring about him beyond that, feeling insecure, not knowing how to communicate or be completely honest. Similar to Lonz ex he tried to make me pay for his insecurities/jealousy about me and all i had going on and men being attracted to me. He resented me but admired me without ever knowing how to just channel the latter.
I was out here contemplating doing foul shit, slutting it up, and just becoming the type of nigga I hate just to feel like I wasn't a complete idiot.
Recently just started getting back to myself and i feel better than I was before. More confident and sure of what I offer. Thankful for that experience.
