Not looking for attention or anything. But I seriously don't have any family or friends. Which why I resort to asking here for roommate and craigslist. My life has not gone how I would have hoped because of my mental illness. I'm on medication (antipsychotics) but I can't seem to make friends and the drug is causing me to gain all my weight back. I just wish I was able to live normal and be the person people wanted me to be. Maybe I'd still have a support system. I just wish I could change my life circa 2010-present and finished my degree and been best son I could've been. Why did the disease hit me at the peak of my life. I don't know what to do now and I feel like my life is over. The drug gives me mad crazy thoughts but I can sleep. I just wish I didn't have this disease and friends to talk to. Guys please pray for me. I know we joke on here and all but this is seriously whats happening in my life. I have no one to talk to other than my psychiatrist and he doesn't seem to care. Like he's counting the hours in back of his head.
what is they said you had?
I can work but its dealing with people directly that has been my downfall. People are nasty and wanna mess and I not here for it. I may do it online but its because its behind a screen. I just wish I wasn't so different and didn't need medication. I know people take meds for all types of things but when u say antipsychotics ppl associate you with killer/aggressive. I'm taking Seroquel XR btw.
Quote from: zeytoven on April 18, 2016, 11:54:47 PM
. My life has not gone how I would have hoped because of my mental illness. I'm on medication (antipsychotics)
Saying this is not gonna help your case of someone taking you in as a roommate cause that's big risk you might flip out on someone. However, if all this is true i do hope you get better in health, life never goes how you want it but's up to you how you overcome what obstacles and make your life bteer. Instead of conforming yourself to please people, try looking into the mirror and accepting yourself first and then you would feel alot better. TBH everything begins with you :cheerup:
Kill yourself. The perfect and easiest escape.
Quote from: zeytoven on April 18, 2016, 11:57:53 PM
I can work but its dealing with people directly that has been my downfall. People are nasty and wanna mess and I not here for it. I may do it online but its because its behind a screen. I just wish I wasn't so different and didn't need medication. I know people take meds for all types of things but when u say antipsychotics ppl associate you with killer/aggressive. I'm taking Seroquel XR btw.
do you have schizophrenia? based on some of your old posts and stuff you did come across bipolar when you were an Amerie stan she even blocked you..makes sense
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i mean, you'll find a group of ppl that will accept you and you'll forget about all the other bullshitters from ur past
Quote from: Baphomet. on April 19, 2016, 12:02:13 AM
Kill yourself. The perfect and easiest escape.
:stressed:
n
Become your own friend luv. Be strong.
learn to accept yourself...
dont try to be normal, no one is normal... its the fighting to look or act the part that is gonna set you back. you need peace. come to grips with the fact that this is your life and focus on improving it as much as possible to the best of your abilities.
dont allow your happiness to be determined on how many friends you have or your support system.. because youll find yourself in a more fucked up place before even factoring in your illness... people are some of the most unstable creatures..
take it one day at a time and keep pushing
wow ... this kinda explains a lot
and even if you are joking about a lot of things, you STILL exhibit having mental illness
you need to go check into a facility where they can help you. I don't think you should be acting on your own at this point.
Quote from: sumcatbroad on April 19, 2016, 12:05:25 AM
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Gorl
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Quote from: AjBeenOn on April 19, 2016, 12:09:40 AM
learn to accept yourself...
dont try to be normal, no one is normal... its the fighting to look or act the part that is gonna set you back. you need peace. come to grips with the fact that this is your life and focus on improving it as much as possible to the best of your abilities.
dont allow your happiness to be determined on how many friends you have or your support system.. because youll find yourself in a more fucked up place before even factoring in your illness... people are some of the most unstable creatures..
take it one day at a time and keep pushing
I echo all of this.
Quote from: LiBra on April 19, 2016, 12:00:36 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 18, 2016, 11:54:47 PM
. My life has not gone how I would have hoped because of my mental illness. I'm on medication (antipsychotics)
Saying this is not gonna help your case of someone taking you in as a roommate cause that's big risk you might flip out on someone. However, if all this is true i do hope you get better in health, life never goes how you want it but's up to you how you overcome what obstacles and make your life bteer. Instead of conforming yourself to please people, try looking into the mirror and accepting yourself first and then you would feel alot better. TBH everything begins with you :cheerup:
that wouldn't happen as Im on meds and admit to my illness. I'm facing it head on
Quote from: LiBra on April 19, 2016, 12:03:12 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 18, 2016, 11:57:53 PM
I can work but its dealing with people directly that has been my downfall. People are nasty and wanna mess and I not here for it. I may do it online but its because its behind a screen. I just wish I wasn't so different and didn't need medication. I know people take meds for all types of things but when u say antipsychotics ppl associate you with killer/aggressive. I'm taking Seroquel XR btw.
do you have schizophrenia? based on some of your old posts and stuff you did come across bipolar when you were an Amerie stan she even blocked you..makes sense
Yes I do and I believe I'm bipolar 1. During those times I was in early stages of it and didn't have strong feelings as I do now. I don't hear voices but before the meds I thought everyone was against me. But my family did do things to me though, I just couldn't prove it and they seriously hate gay men. I think most gay men from Mississippi face similar experience.
Gu, negative thoughts perpetuates negative experiences. I know it's easier said then done but try to be more optimistic about life and see what you're experiencing as a lesson on your journey. I would recommend taking a holistic approach about healing your mental health but I don't want you to cut off your medication right away because that can be dangerous. Do what's best for you. If you feel in your heart that this medication is holding you back then maybe you should start meditating and learning how to love yourself again. If you do some research you can find people like you and make connections. I wish you the best.
May I ask how you determined you have schizophrenia? How are you getting medication if you don't have a place to stay? Just curious.
Quote from: sumcatbroad on April 19, 2016, 12:06:10 AM
i mean, you'll find a group of ppl that will accept you and you'll forget about all the other bullshitters from ur past
but thats the thing. I feel stuck here. I felt free and at home in ATLANTA, GA. I was amongst people who just like me and like what I like. Also, its very inspirational to see so many successful black gay men doing things in any and every field possible. I really wanna go back so bad.
Quote from: AjBeenOn on April 19, 2016, 12:09:40 AM
learn to accept yourself...
dont try to be normal, no one is normal... its the fighting to look or act the part that is gonna set you back. you need peace. come to grips with the fact that this is your life and focus on improving it as much as possible to the best of your abilities.
dont allow your happiness to be determined on how many friends you have or your support system.. because youll find yourself in a more fucked up place before even factoring in your illness... people are some of the most unstable creatures..
take it one day at a time and keep pushing
very true. I'm actually crying reading this man. Thank you so much because thats my problem. I always question myself and try to make someone else happy.
Quote from: AjBeenOn on April 19, 2016, 12:09:40 AM
learn to accept yourself...
dont try to be normal, no one is normal... its the fighting to look or act the part that is gonna set you back. you need peace. come to grips with the fact that this is your life and focus on improving it as much as possible to the best of your abilities.
dont allow your happiness to be determined on how many friends you have or your support system.. because youll find yourself in a more fucked up place before even factoring in your illness... people are some of the most unstable creatures..
take it one day at a time and keep pushing
Quote from: MAKEDA on April 19, 2016, 12:19:31 AM
Gu, negative thoughts perpetuates negative experiences. I know it's easier said then done but try to be more optimistic about life and see what you're experiencing as a lesson on your journey. I would recommend taking a holistic approach about healing your mental health but I don't want you to cut off your medication right away because that can be dangerous. Do what's best for you. If you feel in your heart that this medication is holding you back then maybe you should start meditating and learning how to love yourself again. If you do some research you can find people like you and make connections. I wish you the best.
May I ask how you determined you have schizophrenia? How are you getting medication if you don't have a place to stay? Just curious.
My doctor gave me the diagnoses. I knew I was ok mentally because I kept running from job and situations. I made the discussion to get help when I ended up homeless in Norcross. That situation made me realize I need help. My family did do things to me because of my sexuality. That wasn't me making up stuff nor do I on my jobs. The drug helps me cope and think straight without focusing on what ppl think about me and why I'm not normal like everyone else in public. I see what your saying, antipsychotics can decrease my brain cells and I realize that but mediating doesn't help me. I think I was my happiest when I lost all the weight but I could stop doing enemas which would cause some manic episodes.
Quote from: FAM? on April 19, 2016, 12:08:43 AM
Become your own friend luv. Be strong.
Thanks man. I'm going to try, my kindness has always been my downfall.
Quote from: FINE. on April 19, 2016, 12:10:48 AM
Gorl
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This is not a joke or ki sir. This is real life for me. I don't care about thread views. This is serious and my every day struggle. Not faking or nothing. I have a problem and was hoping by making this thread to get advice.
Do you suffer from social anxiety as well? Because that's how you describe it.
Also is your doctor someone you've been seeing for a while and has a full view of your medical history? Or are you a relatively new client of his? I ask because the U.S. health industry is corrupt and hellbent on giving you a diagnosis & prescription so that they can empty out your funds. I would recommend getting a second diagnosis if you haven't already.
Also try some other natural alternatives for what sounds like anxiety while you are on your meds. Positive thinking is a start, but a shift in perspective and doing some positive activities will benefit you greatly. Maybe a change in diet? Picking up a physical activity. Yoga is great and doesn't require a gym membership. Meds are not good for long term use and the longer you take it the more dependent to the drug you become.
Meditating can be as simple as taking 5-10 deep slow breaths. Also rubbing your eyes while closed can help ease your nervous system.
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:34:37 AM
Quote from: FINE. on April 19, 2016, 12:10:48 AM
Gorl
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This is not a joke or ki sir. This is real life for me. I don't care about thread views. This is serious and my every day struggle. Not faking or nothing. I have a problem and was hoping by making this thread to get advice.
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Im sorry but I can't take you serious. You be trolling. This is your 100th thread claiming to be so lonely and sad but then 10 seconds later ur getting into it with someone, wishing death on people, making weird ass comments etc
I think ur strange and u like attention. Go see a therapist.
sdffffffffffffff
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:23:44 AM
Quote from: AjBeenOn on April 19, 2016, 12:09:40 AM
learn to accept yourself...
dont try to be normal, no one is normal... its the fighting to look or act the part that is gonna set you back. you need peace. come to grips with the fact that this is your life and focus on improving it as much as possible to the best of your abilities.
dont allow your happiness to be determined on how many friends you have or your support system.. because youll find yourself in a more fucked up place before even factoring in your illness... people are some of the most unstable creatures..
take it one day at a time and keep pushing
very true. I'm actually crying reading this man. Thank you so much because thats my problem. I always question myself and try to make someone else happy.
i feel like youre fighting against yourself.. when youre really already up against enough.
take a step back, calm yourself and work WITH yourself not against yourself..
you cant always wait for others to be your light, make your own and push on
Quote from: FINE. on April 19, 2016, 12:43:04 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:34:37 AM
Quote from: FINE. on April 19, 2016, 12:10:48 AM
Gorl
(http://i.imgur.com/7VEjgxP.gif)
This is not a joke or ki sir. This is real life for me. I don't care about thread views. This is serious and my every day struggle. Not faking or nothing. I have a problem and was hoping by making this thread to get advice.
(http://i.imgur.com/7VEjgxP.gif)
Im sorry but I can't take you serious. You be trolling. This is your 100th thread claiming to be so lonely and sad but then 10 seconds later ur getting into it with someone, wishing death on people, making weird ass comments etc
I think ur strange and u like attention. Go see a therapist.
cxxdddddrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrre
It's not much, but maybe these videos can help in some way. Or at least distract you for a moment.
She has an infectiously positive attitude that radiates off screen, and maybe the dialogue can boost your spirits in some way.
I went through something similar and some of her tips have helped me.
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 12:41:24 AM
Do you suffer from social anxiety as well? Because that's how you describe it.
Also is your doctor someone you've been seeing for a while and has a full view of your medical history? Or are you a relatively new client of his? I ask because the U.S. health industry is corrupt and hellbent on giving you a diagnosis & prescription so that they can empty out your funds. I would recommend getting a second diagnosis if you haven't already.
Also try some other natural alternatives for what sounds like anxiety while you are on your meds. Positive thinking is a start, but a shift in perspective and doing some positive activities will benefit you greatly. Maybe a change in diet? Picking up a physical activity. Yoga is great and doesn't require a gym membership. Meds are not good for long term use and the longer you take it the more dependent to the drug you become.
Meditating can be as simple as taking 5-10 deep slow breaths. Also rubbing your eyes while closed can help ease your nervous system.
Yes I suffer from social anxiety. I can go in a room with large crowd just have mad thoughts about what ppl think about me and do they think I'm there to commit a crime. For a long time I dreaded going to store or the mall because of stigmas against black men.
I'm a new client of his, my psychologist left the area and I can't get in contact with him. Where would I go to get a second diagnosis?
What are some natural alternatives buddy I'll def try them? Is it true the drugs make my brain cells smaller and I could get alzheimers because I do have a bad switch in my eyes and arms. Thanks man. I'm back working now and will def look into a gym membership for yoga. Thanks for all your help you truly don't know how much I appreciate it. I wish I had a phone to talk to you personally on phone.
Quote from: AjBeenOn on April 19, 2016, 12:44:25 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:23:44 AM
Quote from: AjBeenOn on April 19, 2016, 12:09:40 AM
learn to accept yourself...
dont try to be normal, no one is normal... its the fighting to look or act the part that is gonna set you back. you need peace. come to grips with the fact that this is your life and focus on improving it as much as possible to the best of your abilities.
dont allow your happiness to be determined on how many friends you have or your support system.. because youll find yourself in a more fucked up place before even factoring in your illness... people are some of the most unstable creatures..
take it one day at a time and keep pushing
very true. I'm actually crying reading this man. Thank you so much because thats my problem. I always question myself and try to make someone else happy.
i feel like youre fighting against yourself.. when youre really already up against enough.
take a step back, calm yourself and work WITH yourself not against yourself..
you cant always wait for others to be your light, make your own and push on
!
You are preaching in here.
Quote from: AjBeenOn on April 19, 2016, 12:44:25 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:23:44 AM
Quote from: AjBeenOn on April 19, 2016, 12:09:40 AM
learn to accept yourself...
dont try to be normal, no one is normal... its the fighting to look or act the part that is gonna set you back. you need peace. come to grips with the fact that this is your life and focus on improving it as much as possible to the best of your abilities.
dont allow your happiness to be determined on how many friends you have or your support system.. because youll find yourself in a more fucked up place before even factoring in your illness... people are some of the most unstable creatures..
take it one day at a time and keep pushing
very true. I'm actually crying reading this man. Thank you so much because thats my problem. I always question myself and try to make someone else happy.
i feel like youre fighting against yourself.. when youre really already up against enough.
take a step back, calm yourself and work WITH yourself not against yourself..
you cant always wait for others to be your light, make your own and push on
Thats very true because If its one thing I've learned depending on others won't get me anywhere in life. I have to start over and work my way back to where I want to be. My struggle with schizophrenia will not stop me from living a normal life. I will regain my sanity and do everything I set out to do back in high school graduation. Thank you bro for your advise and perspective. I so happy I have you guys in my life. Even if we may not meet face to face I thank God for people like you because had I not joined here. I seriously would be in worst condition than I am now.
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 12:46:42 AM
It's not much, but maybe these videos can help in some way. Or at least distract you for a moment.
She has an infectiously positive attitude that radiates off screen, and maybe the dialogue can boost your spirits in some way.
I went through something similar and some of her tips have helped me.
Thanks man will def check them out ;-)
n
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:47:52 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 12:41:24 AM
Do you suffer from social anxiety as well? Because that's how you describe it.
Also is your doctor someone you've been seeing for a while and has a full view of your medical history? Or are you a relatively new client of his? I ask because the U.S. health industry is corrupt and hellbent on giving you a diagnosis & prescription so that they can empty out your funds. I would recommend getting a second diagnosis if you haven't already.
Also try some other natural alternatives for what sounds like anxiety while you are on your meds. Positive thinking is a start, but a shift in perspective and doing some positive activities will benefit you greatly. Maybe a change in diet? Picking up a physical activity. Yoga is great and doesn't require a gym membership. Meds are not good for long term use and the longer you take it the more dependent to the drug you become.
Meditating can be as simple as taking 5-10 deep slow breaths. Also rubbing your eyes while closed can help ease your nervous system.
Yes I suffer from social anxiety. I can go in a room with large crowd just have mad thoughts about what ppl think about me and do they think I'm there to commit a crime. For a long time I dreaded going to store or the mall because of stigmas against black men.
I'm a new client of his, my psychologist left the area and I can't get in contact with him. Where would I go to get a second diagnosis?
What are some natural alternatives buddy I'll def try them? Is it true the drugs make my brain cells smaller and I could get alzheimers because I do have a bad switch in my eyes and arms. Thanks man. I'm back working now and will def look into a gym membership for yoga. Thanks for all your help you truly don't know how much I appreciate it. I wish I had a phone to talk to you personally on phone.
No problem at all love. If you want feel free to message me. I really feel like I can relate in some way. You don't need a gym membership for Yoga, most gyms either don't offer yoga classes or do at an expensive rate. If you have a smartphone you can try this app called YogaOne. Very simple and easy to follow routines. Maybe start off with 15 minutes a day.
You can also download Headspace, which is an app to benefit your mental and emotional health. They have a meditation timer, where you take 100 deep breaths over the course of 10 minutes, and should feel so much calmer. Don't even worry about your train of thoughts, just remember to focus on your breathing.
All chemical drugs have negative side effects. Have you been diagnosed with schizophrenia before or just this once? I would also try searching some of the free mental health clinics in your area. But unless it's life-threatening at this very moment, don't even label yourself as having a mental illness. Just think of it as a temporary imbalance that can be fixed with a change in lifestyle. Get a morning routine going, start writing down your thoughts or some life goals no matter how small or big they seem.
For natural alternatives Yoga is definitely one. The use of Lavendar also has a calming effect on the body. Get some organic African black soap with Lavendar to bathe with. Allafia has a great bottle available at most health food markets.
Incorporate some lemons into your diet. Boil a cup of hot water in the morning and squeeze some natural lemons. It will kick-start your system when you wake up.
Chamomile tea is great also for night time anxiety relief.
Baph' :(
Sorry that was long-winded, but I really do hope you feel better. Anxiety can be dreadful, but anything can be overcome! Keep your head up!
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:01:46 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:47:52 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 12:41:24 AM
Do you suffer from social anxiety as well? Because that's how you describe it.
Also is your doctor someone you've been seeing for a while and has a full view of your medical history? Or are you a relatively new client of his? I ask because the U.S. health industry is corrupt and hellbent on giving you a diagnosis & prescription so that they can empty out your funds. I would recommend getting a second diagnosis if you haven't already.
Also try some other natural alternatives for what sounds like anxiety while you are on your meds. Positive thinking is a start, but a shift in perspective and doing some positive activities will benefit you greatly. Maybe a change in diet? Picking up a physical activity. Yoga is great and doesn't require a gym membership. Meds are not good for long term use and the longer you take it the more dependent to the drug you become.
Meditating can be as simple as taking 5-10 deep slow breaths. Also rubbing your eyes while closed can help ease your nervous system.
Yes I suffer from social anxiety. I can go in a room with large crowd just have mad thoughts about what ppl think about me and do they think I'm there to commit a crime. For a long time I dreaded going to store or the mall because of stigmas against black men.
I'm a new client of his, my psychologist left the area and I can't get in contact with him. Where would I go to get a second diagnosis?
What are some natural alternatives buddy I'll def try them? Is it true the drugs make my brain cells smaller and I could get alzheimers because I do have a bad switch in my eyes and arms. Thanks man. I'm back working now and will def look into a gym membership for yoga. Thanks for all your help you truly don't know how much I appreciate it. I wish I had a phone to talk to you personally on phone.
No problem at all love. If you want feel free to message me. I really feel like I can relate in some way. You don't need a gym membership for Yoga, most gyms either don't offer yoga classes or do at an expensive rate. If you have a smartphone you can try this app called YogaOne. Very simple and easy to follow routines. Maybe start off with 15 minutes a day.
You can also download Headspace, which is an app to benefit your mental and emotional health. They have a meditation timer, where you take 100 deep breaths over the course of 10 minutes, and should feel so much calmer. Don't even worry about your train of thoughts, just remember to focus on your breathing.
All chemical drugs have negative side effects. Have you been diagnosed with schizophrenia before or just this once? I would also try searching some of the free mental health clinics in your area. But unless it's life-threatening at this very moment, don't even label yourself as having a mental illness. Just think of it as a temporary imbalance that can be fixed with a change in lifestyle. Get a morning routine going, start writing down your thoughts or some life goals no matter how small or big they seem.
For natural alternatives Yoga is definitely one. The use of Lavendar also has a calming effect on the body. Get some organic African black soap with Lavendar to bathe with. Allafia has a great bottle available at most health food markets.
Incorporate some lemons into your diet. Boil a cup of hot water in the morning and squeeze some natural lemons. It will kick-start your system when you wake up.
Chamomile tea is great also for night time anxiety relief.
Yes sir you very right drugs do have negative side effects. I'm going to check on free clinics in the area. I believe my psychiatrist may have misdiagnosed me because when I was with my parents house I did have issues with damaging my furniture because the stuff they were doing to me was very messed up. I didn't mention this in main post because I'm embarrassed and it may make me look like spoiled brat and thats not the case. I just wanted the stuff to stop and it wouldn't. Seems like everything I told my farther in 2009 for help. He switched up and pushed all my anxieties in my face full throttle. He was basically getting information out of me because he knew I was gay and was ready to make me seem crazy. Y'all the stuff he did to me is very very extreme. If I hadn't left I would've been in prison. I still hate them for it.
I will def try organic products and tea, thanks man. I think letting go of the past is also my issue. But I do believe doing natural things will help me more than the meds.
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:06:23 AM
Sorry that was long-winded, but I really do hope you feel better. Anxiety can be dreadful, but anything can be overcome! Keep your head up!
No man you're not long winded. I'm thankful for all your advise. I truly do thank God for you because my family see my illness as a joke. They think I'm weak and they used my weakness to play games with me. I seriously thank God for helping me get through that tough time. I really wish I oculd meet you. The wisdom you're giving me in this thread is more than anything I've gotten for so called family. When did you realize you had anxiety issues? Do you think its bad to tell people about your anxieties, because I told my father and sister and it ended up shooting me in the foot?
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:18:29 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:01:46 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:47:52 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 12:41:24 AM
Do you suffer from social anxiety as well? Because that's how you describe it.
Also is your doctor someone you've been seeing for a while and has a full view of your medical history? Or are you a relatively new client of his? I ask because the U.S. health industry is corrupt and hellbent on giving you a diagnosis & prescription so that they can empty out your funds. I would recommend getting a second diagnosis if you haven't already.
Also try some other natural alternatives for what sounds like anxiety while you are on your meds. Positive thinking is a start, but a shift in perspective and doing some positive activities will benefit you greatly. Maybe a change in diet? Picking up a physical activity. Yoga is great and doesn't require a gym membership. Meds are not good for long term use and the longer you take it the more dependent to the drug you become.
Meditating can be as simple as taking 5-10 deep slow breaths. Also rubbing your eyes while closed can help ease your nervous system.
Yes I suffer from social anxiety. I can go in a room with large crowd just have mad thoughts about what ppl think about me and do they think I'm there to commit a crime. For a long time I dreaded going to store or the mall because of stigmas against black men.
I'm a new client of his, my psychologist left the area and I can't get in contact with him. Where would I go to get a second diagnosis?
What are some natural alternatives buddy I'll def try them? Is it true the drugs make my brain cells smaller and I could get alzheimers because I do have a bad switch in my eyes and arms. Thanks man. I'm back working now and will def look into a gym membership for yoga. Thanks for all your help you truly don't know how much I appreciate it. I wish I had a phone to talk to you personally on phone.
No problem at all love. If you want feel free to message me. I really feel like I can relate in some way. You don't need a gym membership for Yoga, most gyms either don't offer yoga classes or do at an expensive rate. If you have a smartphone you can try this app called YogaOne. Very simple and easy to follow routines. Maybe start off with 15 minutes a day.
You can also download Headspace, which is an app to benefit your mental and emotional health. They have a meditation timer, where you take 100 deep breaths over the course of 10 minutes, and should feel so much calmer. Don't even worry about your train of thoughts, just remember to focus on your breathing.
All chemical drugs have negative side effects. Have you been diagnosed with schizophrenia before or just this once? I would also try searching some of the free mental health clinics in your area. But unless it's life-threatening at this very moment, don't even label yourself as having a mental illness. Just think of it as a temporary imbalance that can be fixed with a change in lifestyle. Get a morning routine going, start writing down your thoughts or some life goals no matter how small or big they seem.
For natural alternatives Yoga is definitely one. The use of Lavendar also has a calming effect on the body. Get some organic African black soap with Lavendar to bathe with. Allafia has a great bottle available at most health food markets.
Incorporate some lemons into your diet. Boil a cup of hot water in the morning and squeeze some natural lemons. It will kick-start your system when you wake up.
Chamomile tea is great also for night time anxiety relief.
He switched up and pushed all my anxieties in my face full throttle. He was basically getting information out of me because he knew I was gay and was ready to make me seem crazy.
omg, this is so similar to what my family did to me just this past holiday. My nervous system was completely messed up from being on cold medications, weed, and prescription drugs. They didn't understand anything that I was going through and thought all my anxiety was just about me being gay and used that to validate their arguments.
Quote from: FINE. on April 19, 2016, 12:43:04 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:34:37 AM
Quote from: FINE. on April 19, 2016, 12:10:48 AM
Gorl
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This is not a joke or ki sir. This is real life for me. I don't care about thread views. This is serious and my every day struggle. Not faking or nothing. I have a problem and was hoping by making this thread to get advice.
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Im sorry but I can't take you serious. You be trolling. This is your 100th thread claiming to be so lonely and sad but then 10 seconds later ur getting into it with someone, wishing death on people, making weird ass comments etc
I think ur strange and u like attention. Go see a therapist.
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kinda true
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:22:58 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:06:23 AM
Sorry that was long-winded, but I really do hope you feel better. Anxiety can be dreadful, but anything can be overcome! Keep your head up!
No man you're not long winded. I'm thankful for all your advise. I truly do thank God for you because my family see my illness as a joke. They think I'm weak and they used my weakness to play games with me. I seriously thank God for helping me get through that tough time. I really wish I oculd meet you. The wisdom you're giving me in this thread is more than anything I've gotten for so called family. When did you realize you had anxiety issues? Do you think its bad to tell people about your anxieties, because I told my father and sister and it ended up shooting me in the foot?
I've had anxiety since I was an early teen. I don't think it's bad to tell people. It's actually a relief bc then you don't have to hide it. Even if they don't understand you, you can walk away knowing that they chose to remain ignorant to your struggle.
thats fine. I take myself seriously
Quote from: FINE. on April 19, 2016, 12:43:04 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:34:37 AM
Quote from: FINE. on April 19, 2016, 12:10:48 AM
Gorl
(http://i.imgur.com/7VEjgxP.gif)
This is not a joke or ki sir. This is real life for me. I don't care about thread views. This is serious and my every day struggle. Not faking or nothing. I have a problem and was hoping by making this thread to get advice.
(http://i.imgur.com/7VEjgxP.gif)
Im sorry but I can't take you serious. You be trolling. This is your 100th thread claiming to be so lonely and sad but then 10 seconds later ur getting into it with someone, wishing death on people, making weird ass comments etc
I think ur strange and u like attention. Go see a therapist.
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Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:30:03 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:22:58 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:06:23 AM
Sorry that was long-winded, but I really do hope you feel better. Anxiety can be dreadful, but anything can be overcome! Keep your head up!
No man you're not long winded. I'm thankful for all your advise. I truly do thank God for you because my family see my illness as a joke. They think I'm weak and they used my weakness to play games with me. I seriously thank God for helping me get through that tough time. I really wish I oculd meet you. The wisdom you're giving me in this thread is more than anything I've gotten for so called family. When did you realize you had anxiety issues? Do you think its bad to tell people about your anxieties, because I told my father and sister and it ended up shooting me in the foot?
I've had anxiety since I was an early teen. I don't think it's bad to tell people. It's actually a relief bc then you don't have to hide it. Even if they don't understand you, you can walk away knowing that they chose to remain ignorant to your struggle.
Thats true but what if they do the very things you told them that bothers you. Thats what happen with my father. He even went above and beyond to make me want to kill myself. I really can't wait til karma hits him because I did not deserve what he did to me. I didn't deserve any of it.
I'm praying for you Gu
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:32:46 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:30:03 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:22:58 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:06:23 AM
Sorry that was long-winded, but I really do hope you feel better. Anxiety can be dreadful, but anything can be overcome! Keep your head up!
No man you're not long winded. I'm thankful for all your advise. I truly do thank God for you because my family see my illness as a joke. They think I'm weak and they used my weakness to play games with me. I seriously thank God for helping me get through that tough time. I really wish I oculd meet you. The wisdom you're giving me in this thread is more than anything I've gotten for so called family. When did you realize you had anxiety issues? Do you think its bad to tell people about your anxieties, because I told my father and sister and it ended up shooting me in the foot?
I've had anxiety since I was an early teen. I don't think it's bad to tell people. It's actually a relief bc then you don't have to hide it. Even if they don't understand you, you can walk away knowing that they chose to remain ignorant to your struggle.
Thats true but what if they do the very things you told them that bothers you. Thats what happen with my father. He even went above and beyond to make me want to kill myself. I really can't wait til karma hits him because I did not deserve what he did to me. I didn't deserve any of it.
If you're ever in a situation where to feel provoked to a breaking point or suicidal call a hotline or hospital. If you have control of the situation just walk away.
Quote from: glock on April 19, 2016, 01:34:05 AM
I'm praying for you Gu
Thank you Glock and call me Jimmie. Thats my real name, u guys are family to me.
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:36:44 AM
Quote from: glock on April 19, 2016, 01:34:05 AM
I'm praying for you Gu
Thank you Glock and call me Jimmie. Thats my real name, u guys are family to me.
Aw ok Jimmie.
I'm Tanna
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:36:31 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:32:46 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:30:03 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:22:58 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:06:23 AM
Sorry that was long-winded, but I really do hope you feel better. Anxiety can be dreadful, but anything can be overcome! Keep your head up!
No man you're not long winded. I'm thankful for all your advise. I truly do thank God for you because my family see my illness as a joke. They think I'm weak and they used my weakness to play games with me. I seriously thank God for helping me get through that tough time. I really wish I oculd meet you. The wisdom you're giving me in this thread is more than anything I've gotten for so called family. When did you realize you had anxiety issues? Do you think its bad to tell people about your anxieties, because I told my father and sister and it ended up shooting me in the foot?
I've had anxiety since I was an early teen. I don't think it's bad to tell people. It's actually a relief bc then you don't have to hide it. Even if they don't understand you, you can walk away knowing that they chose to remain ignorant to your struggle.
Thats true but what if they do the very things you told them that bothers you. Thats what happen with my father. He even went above and beyond to make me want to kill myself. I really can't wait til karma hits him because I did not deserve what he did to me. I didn't deserve any of it.
If you're ever in a situation where to feel provoked to a breaking point or suicidal call a hotline or hospital. If you have control of the situation just walk away.
Thats the thing, at the time I didn't and now I'm still kinda in bind for money. He uses that to manipulate me and do everything he did to me before over again.
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:38:01 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:36:31 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:32:46 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:30:03 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:22:58 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:06:23 AM
Sorry that was long-winded, but I really do hope you feel better. Anxiety can be dreadful, but anything can be overcome! Keep your head up!
No man you're not long winded. I'm thankful for all your advise. I truly do thank God for you because my family see my illness as a joke. They think I'm weak and they used my weakness to play games with me. I seriously thank God for helping me get through that tough time. I really wish I oculd meet you. The wisdom you're giving me in this thread is more than anything I've gotten for so called family. When did you realize you had anxiety issues? Do you think its bad to tell people about your anxieties, because I told my father and sister and it ended up shooting me in the foot?
I've had anxiety since I was an early teen. I don't think it's bad to tell people. It's actually a relief bc then you don't have to hide it. Even if they don't understand you, you can walk away knowing that they chose to remain ignorant to your struggle.
Thats true but what if they do the very things you told them that bothers you. Thats what happen with my father. He even went above and beyond to make me want to kill myself. I really can't wait til karma hits him because I did not deserve what he did to me. I didn't deserve any of it.
If you're ever in a situation where to feel provoked to a breaking point or suicidal call a hotline or hospital. If you have control of the situation just walk away.
Thats the thing, at the time I didn't and now I'm still kinda in bind for money. He uses that to manipulate me and do everything he did to me before over again.
So do you live with your father now or on your own?
I would hit up that member who offered to give you $500. I messaged him shortly after and he seemed really genuine about it.
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:39:59 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:38:01 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:36:31 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:32:46 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:30:03 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:22:58 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:06:23 AM
Sorry that was long-winded, but I really do hope you feel better. Anxiety can be dreadful, but anything can be overcome! Keep your head up!
No man you're not long winded. I'm thankful for all your advise. I truly do thank God for you because my family see my illness as a joke. They think I'm weak and they used my weakness to play games with me. I seriously thank God for helping me get through that tough time. I really wish I oculd meet you. The wisdom you're giving me in this thread is more than anything I've gotten for so called family. When did you realize you had anxiety issues? Do you think its bad to tell people about your anxieties, because I told my father and sister and it ended up shooting me in the foot?
I've had anxiety since I was an early teen. I don't think it's bad to tell people. It's actually a relief bc then you don't have to hide it. Even if they don't understand you, you can walk away knowing that they chose to remain ignorant to your struggle.
Thats true but what if they do the very things you told them that bothers you. Thats what happen with my father. He even went above and beyond to make me want to kill myself. I really can't wait til karma hits him because I did not deserve what he did to me. I didn't deserve any of it.
If you're ever in a situation where to feel provoked to a breaking point or suicidal call a hotline or hospital. If you have control of the situation just walk away.
Thats the thing, at the time I didn't and now I'm still kinda in bind for money. He uses that to manipulate me and do everything he did to me before over again.
So do you live with your father now or on your own?
I would hit up that member who offered to give you $500. I messaged him shortly after and he seemed really genuine about it.
I unfortunately do but I sleep in my car at night and leave during day for work or to park. I messaged him but he didn't respond. I wish he did because that money would've been a blessing.
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Why are y'all.giving advice to this troll?
somebody please thread block Drais. Thank in advance.
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:42:41 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:39:59 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:38:01 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:36:31 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:32:46 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:30:03 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:22:58 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:06:23 AM
Sorry that was long-winded, but I really do hope you feel better. Anxiety can be dreadful, but anything can be overcome! Keep your head up!
No man you're not long winded. I'm thankful for all your advise. I truly do thank God for you because my family see my illness as a joke. They think I'm weak and they used my weakness to play games with me. I seriously thank God for helping me get through that tough time. I really wish I oculd meet you. The wisdom you're giving me in this thread is more than anything I've gotten for so called family. When did you realize you had anxiety issues? Do you think its bad to tell people about your anxieties, because I told my father and sister and it ended up shooting me in the foot?
I've had anxiety since I was an early teen. I don't think it's bad to tell people. It's actually a relief bc then you don't have to hide it. Even if they don't understand you, you can walk away knowing that they chose to remain ignorant to your struggle.
Thats true but what if they do the very things you told them that bothers you. Thats what happen with my father. He even went above and beyond to make me want to kill myself. I really can't wait til karma hits him because I did not deserve what he did to me. I didn't deserve any of it.
If you're ever in a situation where to feel provoked to a breaking point or suicidal call a hotline or hospital. If you have control of the situation just walk away.
Thats the thing, at the time I didn't and now I'm still kinda in bind for money. He uses that to manipulate me and do everything he did to me before over again.
So do you live with your father now or on your own?
I would hit up that member who offered to give you $500. I messaged him shortly after and he seemed really genuine about it.
I unfortunately do but I sleep in my car at night and leave during day for work or to park. I messaged him but he didn't respond. I wish he did because that money would've been a blessing.
Check your PMs
But even if your father is being a butt, at least you have some kind of family and place to call home to fall back on.
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:53:43 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:42:41 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:39:59 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:38:01 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:36:31 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:32:46 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:30:03 AM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:22:58 AM
Quote from: Keyonc? on April 19, 2016, 01:06:23 AM
Sorry that was long-winded, but I really do hope you feel better. Anxiety can be dreadful, but anything can be overcome! Keep your head up!
No man you're not long winded. I'm thankful for all your advise. I truly do thank God for you because my family see my illness as a joke. They think I'm weak and they used my weakness to play games with me. I seriously thank God for helping me get through that tough time. I really wish I oculd meet you. The wisdom you're giving me in this thread is more than anything I've gotten for so called family. When did you realize you had anxiety issues? Do you think its bad to tell people about your anxieties, because I told my father and sister and it ended up shooting me in the foot?
I've had anxiety since I was an early teen. I don't think it's bad to tell people. It's actually a relief bc then you don't have to hide it. Even if they don't understand you, you can walk away knowing that they chose to remain ignorant to your struggle.
Thats true but what if they do the very things you told them that bothers you. Thats what happen with my father. He even went above and beyond to make me want to kill myself. I really can't wait til karma hits him because I did not deserve what he did to me. I didn't deserve any of it.
If you're ever in a situation where to feel provoked to a breaking point or suicidal call a hotline or hospital. If you have control of the situation just walk away.
Thats the thing, at the time I didn't and now I'm still kinda in bind for money. He uses that to manipulate me and do everything he did to me before over again.
So do you live with your father now or on your own?
I would hit up that member who offered to give you $500. I messaged him shortly after and he seemed really genuine about it.
I unfortunately do but I sleep in my car at night and leave during day for work or to park. I messaged him but he didn't respond. I wish he did because that money would've been a blessing.
Check your PMs
But even if your father is being a butt, at least you have some kind of family and place to call home to fall back on.
just check thanks man. You're so right I can't let him win. He will not control my life. I will overcome and make something of myself.
Quote from: FINE. on April 19, 2016, 12:54:02 AM
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Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:53:17 AM
somebody please thread block Drais. Thank in advance.
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aweeee
Faggot aint nobody blocking nothing.
You've been lying for years. Going from forum to forum looking for sympathy and making up illnesses.
You're just a miserable faggot tbh.
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mess bby..a mess..
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Quote from: sumcatbroad on April 19, 2016, 12:13:25 AM
Quote from: AjBeenOn on April 19, 2016, 12:09:40 AM
learn to accept yourself...
dont try to be normal, no one is normal... its the fighting to look or act the part that is gonna set you back. you need peace. come to grips with the fact that this is your life and focus on improving it as much as possible to the best of your abilities.
dont allow your happiness to be determined on how many friends you have or your support system.. because youll find yourself in a more fucked up place before even factoring in your illness... people are some of the most unstable creatures..
take it one day at a time and keep pushing
I echo all of this.
great advice. and the first page of this thread is demonic
Quote from: sumcatbroad on April 19, 2016, 12:05:25 AM
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Queen Yee
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 01:36:44 AM
Quote from: glock on April 19, 2016, 01:34:05 AM
I'm praying for you Gu
Thank you Glock and call me Jimmie. Thats my real name, u guys are family to me.
xxx
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It's really nice to see members come from a genuine place in here giving all great advice but it seems some members are familiar with your antics to create sympathy threads. I believe you should stay offline for awhile and focus on you and what's best for health, learn to love yourself before looking for acceptance from anyone tbh. (http://38.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mardlozJHn1rnwl19.gif)
Quote from: LiBra on April 19, 2016, 10:43:19 AM
It's really nice to see members come from a genuine place in here giving all great advice but it seems some members are familiar with your antics to create sympathy threads. I believe you should stay offline for awhile and focus on you and what's best for health, learn to love yourself before looking for acceptance from anyone tbh. (http://38.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mardlozJHn1rnwl19.gif)
Thanks man, but I believe my posting online is therapeutic but I see where your coming from. It may be keeping me from coming out my shell and being able to have real human experience
Joke or not, log off and seek professional help because you need it. Best of luck!
Quote from: Baphomet. on April 19, 2016, 12:02:13 AM
Kill yourself. The perfect and easiest escape.
:dead:
why is there a stigma towards schizophrenia people see it as a means for attention?
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 11:27:32 AM
why is there a stigma towards schizophrenia people see it as a means for attention?
There's stigma towards YOU based on all the bullshit you've pulled in the past (http://i.imgur.com/7VEjgxP.gif)
Quote from: RON. on April 19, 2016, 11:17:59 AM
Joke or not, log off and seek professional help because you need it. Best of luck!
first learn to develop a love for GOD, the life and blessings he's given throughout the years . I hate to sound like a bible thumper, and I don't even agree with some of the things in religion, but try praying ..just try it once and see how you feel...you can say a silent prayer in your heart or pray aloud.
THEN learn to love yourself, first and foremost . Depending on "friends" or any other human being for your happiness is a big mistake, because they are imperfect, and just as flawed ( if not more flawed) than you are believe it or not. Remember that all life is precious, even when we are in some our darkest moments, there's always a reason to hope. I think you need to focus less on winning friendship with others, more on yourself. Like look within you for the strength to go on and develop your faith and spirituality more . It's like a weapon you can use to fight off the negativity in your life, which all comes from the devil anyway . Hang in there buddy .
Thank you thank thank you buddy. You're so right and a lot people in here see how desperate I am for other ppls approvals, when I should be living for myself. I just got back into Christianity and I'm glad I did. I can't do it by myself anymore and just believing that their is someone above watching and seeing my struggles first hands gives me warmth and understanding that it will get better with time. I just need to focus get help and work hard to get back to where I want to be in life. You guys just don't know how much u have helped me. I'm going to pray for you guys as well as I know we all have problems. Thanks again buddy :D u guys are my guardian angels and I hope to be for yall as well :D
This is too much
told u ima bit thick :justabit:
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I don't know why you come here looking for any genuine help
these people will just make fun of you or use it against you in your next spat
go to a professional who actually cares.
Quote from: Mel. on April 19, 2016, 12:14:27 PM
I don't know why you come here looking for any genuine help
these people will just make fun of you or use it against you in your next spat
go to a professional who actually cares.
Thanks Mel. I see on here who still think life is a joke and that I'm trolling but why troll about something serious. I could post my medication picture but that is what they want. I don't have to prove anything to them. This illness is serious is not a laughing matter
i thought u were the new michael jackson baby;
wtf
Quote from: King steevy on April 19, 2016, 12:23:03 PM
i thought u were the new michael jackson baby;
I wish baby, I was but the weight gain is sadly saying otherwise. I'm giving up on my dreams and focusing on getting better, working on a job longer than a year and staying consistent with my plans.
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:21:20 PM
Quote from: Mel. on April 19, 2016, 12:14:27 PM
I don't know why you come here looking for any genuine help
these people will just make fun of you or use it against you in your next spat
go to a professional who actually cares.
Thanks Mel. I see on here who still think life is a joke and that I'm trolling but why troll about something serious. I could post my medication picture but that is what they want. I don't have to prove anything to them. This illness is serious is not a laughing matter
I feel you're being serious
and I know how serious the situation is, which is why I don't think this is the right place to express that
there are some very nasty and mean spirited people here
and I would hate to see what you're going through thrown in your face later
dont give them material to hang over your head...
I'll keep you in my prayers :blush:
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:28:27 PM
Quote from: King steevy on April 19, 2016, 12:23:03 PM
i thought u were the new michael jackson baby;
I wish baby, I was but the weight gain is sadly saying otherwise. I'm giving up on my dreams and focusing on getting better, working on a job longer than a year and staying consistent with my plans.
you're not the one who was posting pictures of your weight loss
ok dude ... wth is going on ... and be HONEST this time
otherwise I'm gonna petition the board to IP check you.
I don't feel safe with you around tbh
Quote from: Mel. on April 19, 2016, 12:30:34 PM
Quote from: zeytoven on April 19, 2016, 12:21:20 PM
Quote from: Mel. on April 19, 2016, 12:14:27 PM
I don't know why you come here looking for any genuine help
these people will just make fun of you or use it against you in your next spat
go to a professional who actually cares.
Thanks Mel. I see on here who still think life is a joke and that I'm trolling but why troll about something serious. I could post my medication picture but that is what they want. I don't have to prove anything to them. This illness is serious is not a laughing matter
there are some very nasty and mean spirited people here