I been off my meds for months n haven't had ravings thoughts etc. I start back eating g fast food n all sudden side affects from my meds come racing back. Like I wanna leave right now I don't know who or what is doing this to me. I feel helpless because ppl offline think I'm crazy n u guys think I'm a troll. I'm sitting crying cuz now I'm scared to eat food. U guys don't know how hard it is to live w stigma of being labeled schizophrenic. Ppl think your brain dead. What should I do. I think its stick to packaged foods IDK
You should commit urself
N I'm not blaming my roommate he has been nothing but supportive n understanding. I believe my psychiatrist along w Memphis police are doing this. People don't realize the medicine make ppl do unusual stuff. U have a million n one thoughts n it's wild stuff. But my doctor would say no u would do it off the meds. So I just stop going he disrespectful n placed me on different meds like I was an animal w no say. Oh the side affects don't matter it's no big deal u wanna get better. I feel helpless n like I'm devils child. Ppl treat bad when they find out u bipolar n it's just sad. I just wanna live work n love like everyone else. Sex has been my escape but even that doesn't help me cope. IDK who to turn to
Commit urself Hun.
You've convinced yourself that u have AIDS.. And that you'll one day out peak Beyonce.
Go in there and let them help u get better.
I'm being genuine.. U def need to be monitored
Quote from: G on August 29, 2016, 10:47:31 PM
You should commit urself
Read my second post. Psych wards would treat me worse than ppl do. U give up your right in there. They will rape u n get a way w it. They put u on 5 or 10 different drugs in week. No way I'm doing that I'm not a danger no myself or most importantly anyone else. I feel HELPLESS.
Quote from: G on August 29, 2016, 10:55:18 PM
Commit urself Hun.
You've convinced yourself that u have AIDS.. And that you'll one day out peak Beyonce.
Go in there and let them help u get better.
I'm being genuine.. U def need to be monitored
Never I will doe before I do that. I'm not having them kill my brain cells. Ppl in society treat mental illness as a person raised by Satan. I can't trust doctors in psych ward to have my best interest. If they did why is this a lifelong disease. They can't find a cure cuz they getting rich from prescription drugs. While us crazy ppl live helpless lives most end up homeless cuz of not reforming. U don't understand what is going on
That straight jacket awaits you beloved.
I have heard that bipolarism causes hyper sexuality
THEY are trying to SELF medicate you, bby?
f
Boy
Quote from: G on August 29, 2016, 10:55:18 PM
Commit urself Hun.
You've convinced yourself that u have AIDS.. And that you'll one day out peak Beyonce.
Go in there and let them help u get better.
I'm being genuine.. U def need to be monitored
I do have HIV didn't u read my post. I used sex as a way to escape n it didn't help. See anything I say is
Questionable. It's like why bother ppl think your brain isn't functioning so u need meds or else u gonna kill ppl. Y'all I'm helpless right now. I'm just gonna stop eating prepared food from others
Quote from: BigDawg on August 29, 2016, 10:59:50 PM
I have heard that bipolarism causes hyper sexuality
It does. I have slept with so many men over past year I feel embarrassed. But I could not help it and nobody would believe me when I talk about my troubles. So I said I'm just bust a nut. When my body was at its peak at 150 I would duck two dudes in a day. Now I'm thicker and have HIV I'm not ducking anyone cuz I'm truthful about my status
Quote from: 1stsecuritybank on August 29, 2016, 11:05:13 PM
Quote from: BigDawg on August 29, 2016, 10:59:50 PM
I have heard that bipolarism causes hyper sexuality
It does. I have slept with so many men over past year I feel embarrassed. But I could not help it and nobody would believe me when I talk about my troubles. So I said I'm just bust a nut. When my body was at its peak at 150 I would duck two dudes in a day. Now I'm thicker and have HIV I'm not ducking anyone cuz I'm truthful about my status
I prey you find peace and it all works in your favor.
Quote from: 1stsecuritybank on August 29, 2016, 10:59:08 PM
Quote from: G on August 29, 2016, 10:55:18 PM
Commit urself Hun.
You've convinced yourself that u have AIDS.. And that you'll one day out peak Beyonce.
Go in there and let them help u get better.
I'm being genuine.. U def need to be monitored
Never I will doe before I do that. I'm not having them kill my brain cells. Ppl in society treat mental illness as a person raised by Satan. I can't trust doctors in psych ward to have my best interest. If they did why is this a lifelong disease. They can't find a cure cuz they getting rich from prescription drugs. While us crazy ppl live helpless lives most end up homeless cuz of not reforming. U don't understand what is going on
honestly this was very deep and informative
I'm clapping
But with that said .. Gu.. U do need some kinda help..
A friend won't help.. Sex won't help.. Losing weight won't help
U need to be monitored.
You suffer from paranoia and convince yourself of things ..
Like this whole AIDS thing .. Like .. U are really tryna convince urself that u have AIDS and u don't...
Or that you're gonna slay Beyonce and be mjs predecessor
Come on guy
these people don't care about you hun and I wish you'd stop...
I read in your other thread that you feel this is a safe haven for you
and you can speak freely because you feel like there's family here
it really isn't and this is not the place to be telling all your business.
it really isnt
Quote from: aGhoulact on August 29, 2016, 11:00:04 PM
THEY are trying to SELF medicate you, bby?
Yes and I'm scared cuz I don't know who it is. I'm helpless. My roommate understands but he has millions of problems too so I jus hold mines in. I jus wish my anxieties didn't follow me everywhere. I bet on my background check it labels me insane w examples .... y'all kii all u may but this is real life for me. I feel like I'm in a war and u may say it's in my brain but no it's real life.
So what's the solution then gu?
but then again...i think you're lying about all of this
and I think it's rather sad that you'll make up having HIV for some attention...
there's real people out there living with the disease and its a slap in the face to them
these gorls don't care about you, log off and seek help, no tea, no shade
because its not funny...you have issues
Quote from: G on August 29, 2016, 11:09:07 PM
Quote from: 1stsecuritybank on August 29, 2016, 10:59:08 PM
Quote from: G on August 29, 2016, 10:55:18 PM
Commit urself Hun.
You've convinced yourself that u have AIDS.. And that you'll one day out peak Beyonce.
Go in there and let them help u get better.
I'm being genuine.. U def need to be monitored
Never I will doe before I do that. I'm not having them kill my brain cells. Ppl in society treat mental illness as a person raised by Satan. I can't trust doctors in psych ward to have my best interest. If they did why is this a lifelong disease. They can't find a cure cuz they getting rich from prescription drugs. While us crazy ppl live helpless lives most end up homeless cuz of not reforming. U don't understand what is going on
honestly this was very deep and informative
I'm clapping
But with that said .. Gu.. U do need some kinda help..
A friend won't help.. Sex won't help.. Losing weight won't help
U need to be monitored.
You suffer from paranoia and convince yourself of things ..
Like this whole AIDS thing .. Like .. U are really tryna convince urself that u have AIDS and u don't...
Or that you're gonna slay Beyonce and be mjs predecessor
Come on guy
But I'm not lying about my status. That is apart of me and my past and yes I'm embarrassed but it is apart of me.
I do think I'm mj successor and I believe it will happen. I only type this online I wouldn't dare tell pal this offline. I just don't think u get what I'm dealing with. If I get on meds and I commit a crime like I did with putting phone under stall. What good does that leave me then. Now my life is over depending on what I do. U talk meds that have u in state of racing thought and u can't sleep and everything feels out wac. I just say this over and over again I feel helpless. The world is a cruel cruel place
Quote from: aGhoulact on August 29, 2016, 11:00:04 PM
THEY are trying to SELF medicate you, bby?
:plzstop: :plzstop: :plzstop: :plzstop: :plzstop: :plzstop:
Quote from: +LIFTED+ on August 29, 2016, 11:09:17 PM
these people don't care about you hun and I wish you'd stop...
I read in your other thread that you feel this is a safe haven for you
and you can speak freely because you feel like there's family here
it really isn't and this is not the place to be telling all your business.
Mel
I am not lying. This is real. I'm typing this right now and I literally wanna go drive somewhere. Instant thought and they coming by millisecond. I can't control them. I'm not lying this is real and yes this is a safe haven for me despite what some members do to me. I really need your prayer please Mel
Quote from: MelMel on August 29, 2016, 11:18:02 PM
Quote from: aGhoulact on August 29, 2016, 11:00:04 PM
THEY are trying to SELF medicate you, bby?
:plzstop: :plzstop: :plzstop: :plzstop: :plzstop: :plzstop:
I AM CRYING OWT!
Quote from: G on August 29, 2016, 11:11:58 PM
So what's the solution then gu?
Not eating prepared foods other than gas station packaged foods. I have figure this out cuz I was doing so good and been on my job for longer than I've been able to stay on any job. Now w million thought I jus want it to stop. This stuff isn't funny nor isn't something one would do for attention. This is real. Why would u wanna be labeled as criminal cuz that's what ppl associate w mental illness. I'm going to give myself a ice bath and take some victims like b12 and d n hope it helps cuz my brain is pumping fast
Quote from: 1stsecuritybank on August 29, 2016, 11:19:54 PM
Quote from: +LIFTED+ on August 29, 2016, 11:09:17 PM
these people don't care about you hun and I wish you'd stop...
I read in your other thread that you feel this is a safe haven for you
and you can speak freely because you feel like there's family here
it really isn't and this is not the place to be telling all your business.
Mel
I am not lying. This is real. I'm typing this right now and I literally wanna go drive somewhere. Instant thought and they coming by millisecond. I can't control them. I'm not lying this is real and yes this is a safe haven for me despite what some members do to me. I really need your prayer please Mel
I'm sorry but I don't believe a word you say...
you come on here and post these outlandish stories and they just seem too far-fetched
all these things just seem to be happening to you and now you have HIV...
honestly....
this is not a safe haven, these people treat you like shit.
who are you actually safe with? even IF you did have HIV, the things they say about you
how could you feel safe with these people? i watched that thread, page after page
of them telling you to die, I don't get it...you're not safe here
you should find a support group or someone you can really talk to
these people are not your friends...
Eek! I wanna believe u and such but I'm torn.
None the less I'll pray For u guy!
Also we asked u how u were able to keep ur phone on and post here
And u said u just go and post at a library
It's definitely 11:30/10:30
U are inconsistent babe. Praying for ya tho
Quote from: G on August 29, 2016, 11:29:40 PM
Eek! I wanna believe u and such but I'm torn.
None the less I'll pray For u guy!
thank you buddy I really need it. Lord knows I do.
Quote from: +LIFTED+ on August 29, 2016, 11:27:31 PM
Quote from: 1stsecuritybank on August 29, 2016, 11:19:54 PM
Quote from: +LIFTED+ on August 29, 2016, 11:09:17 PM
these people don't care about you hun and I wish you'd stop...
I read in your other thread that you feel this is a safe haven for you
and you can speak freely because you feel like there's family here
it really isn't and this is not the place to be telling all your business.
Mel
I am not lying. This is real. I'm typing this right now and I literally wanna go drive somewhere. Instant thought and they coming by millisecond. I can't control them. I'm not lying this is real and yes this is a safe haven for me despite what some members do to me. I really need your prayer please Mel
I'm sorry but I don't believe a word you say...
you come on here and post these outlandish stories and they just seem too far-fetched
all these things just seem to be happening to you and now you have HIV...
honestly....
this is not a safe haven, these people treat you like shit.
who are you actually safe with? even IF you did have HIV, the things they say about you
how could you feel safe with these people? i watched that thread, page after page
of them telling you to die, I don't get it...you're not safe here
you should find a support group or someone you can really talk to
these people are not your friends...
c
I saids the same thing!
f
is somebody gonna ban this nut
Quote from: G on August 29, 2016, 11:31:03 PM
Also we asked u how u were able to keep ur phone on and post here
And u said u just go and post at a library
It's definitely 11:30/10:30
U are inconsistent babe. Praying for ya tho
I have been working for 4 months now at gas station n I brought the phone I have now two days ago. Doesn't matter what I say I just ask u pray for me.
Mel u have all these great suggestions
Why don't u be his friend?
I've witnessed similar behavior from u.. No shade
u kno wha
Quote from: 1stsecuritybank on August 29, 2016, 11:36:50 PM
Quote from: G on August 29, 2016, 11:31:03 PM
Also we asked u how u were able to keep ur phone on and post here
And u said u just go and post at a library
It's definitely 11:30/10:30
U are inconsistent babe. Praying for ya tho
I have been working for 4 months now at gas station n I brought the phone I have now two days ago. Doesn't matter what I say I just ask u pray for me.
done 🙏🏿
go vegan fellow amerbot
k, maybe I came on a lil too strong, I apologize
I just honestly do feel for you...youre clearly going through something
and since I'm prolly one of the few on here who has a heart and can show true empathy toward others
it breaks my heart to see the things being said about you, whether you have HIV or not
I haven't said anything because I'm trying to mind my business on here
but you don't have to be treated like that or accept it, love yourself a bit more
you may be low on friends or whatever your situation is i dont know...
but you don't have to take this abuse that you clearly substitute as friendship
go speak to someone who actually cares and wants to help you
this isn't the place.
Be his friend FAGG
This fucking LOON :uhh:
Quote from: G on August 29, 2016, 11:37:54 PM
Mel u have all these great suggestions
Why don't u be his friend?
I've witnessed similar behavior from u.. No shade
:plzstop: :plzstop: :plzstop:
:uhh: