Like right before I have sex with randoms I'm like nigga damn

nice dick, nice cakes, body sitting, you cute n whatevers. But then when we get to the foreplay I'm like take me back to the train station

I hate the taste of saliva in my mouth and the feeling of the scruff on my face. My skin boils and I jump. I lose my boner too.

Like everything looks better in porn but in real life its quite messy and awkward. Taste funny too.
I play safe but idk I think at this point I need to start actually dating and being intimate with ONE person that can make me comfortable and just put me in the zone. That way I wouldn't be thinking about Stds or brushing and washing men scent off my body before I even get my nut.
Am I the only ones that be feeling this way sometime?