I have that feeling as well.
Theres alot of he say she say for some reason about the races of some of the people in my family:
My Maternal great grandmother has some weird looking people in her family im sorry sddsdsd
like they dont look fully black to me. but they are darker i guess you'd say.
I dont know their maiden names or how that whole trail goes because I think her married last name is davis. my great grandfather (her husband) was Irish they say..or half irish
he was something because I see it in my grandfather and his NOSE omg he pass that mess down to all of us

but i really wanna trace them and see what they really are and how everything played out. Especially on my grandmas side.
On my father's side he showed me his grandmother who was a black woman but then a grandfather that they said cherokee indian. You never know and i never wanna assume especially with the stigma of blacks and being indian

i really wanna get down to the bottom of all this.
and then of course my Japanese side has always been a huge part of my life. But i wanna get to know ALL of me like you were saying.
Like i wanna go to Ghana, Nigeria etc and feel the presence of my ancestors and things.
I know it will all be rewarding but it seems like it takes ALOT of work