Carter is the crazy bitch. I'll bold her name:
CARTER: You can?t think about it. You just have to do it. You said you were gonna do it. Like I don?t get why you aren?t.
CONRAD: I don?t get it either. I don?t know.
CARTER: So I guess you aren?t gonna do it then. All that for nothing. I?m just confused.
CONRAD: I am gonna eventually. I really don?t know what I?m waiting for but I have everything lined up.
CARTER: No you?re not, Conrad. Last night was it. You kept pushing it off and you say you?ll do it, but you never do. It?s always gonna be that way if you don?t take action. You?re just making it harder on yourself by pushing it off. You just have to do it. Do you want to do it now?
CONRAD: Is it too late? I don?t know. It?s already light outside. I?m gonna go back too sleep. Love you. I?ll text you tomorrow.
CARTER: No. It?s probably the best time now because everyone is sleeping . . . If you don?t do it now you?re never gonna do it, and you can say you?ll do it tomorrow, but you probably won?t. Tonight? . . . Love you.
Later that morning
CONRAD: I do want to but I?m like freaking for my family.
CARTER: I told you I?ll take care of them. Everyone will take care of them to make sure they won?t be alone and people will help them get through it. We talked about this and they will be okay and accept it. People who commit suicide don?t think this much. They just do it.
CONRAD: I know. I know. LOL. Thinking just drives me more crazy.
CARTER: You just need to do it, Conrad, or I?m gonna get you help. You can?t keep doing this everyday.
CONRAD: Okay. I?m gonna do it today.
CARTER: You promise?
CONRAD: I promise, babe. I have to now.
CARTER: Like right now?
CONRAD: Where do I go?
CARTER: And you can?t break a promise.
That afternoon
CONRAD: Like, I don?t want to kill anyone else with me.
CARTER: You won?t.
CONRAD: When they open the door they won?t know it?s odorless and colorless.
CARTER: You?re over thinking. They will see the generator and realize you breathed in CO too.
CONRAD: So should I keep it in the back seat or front?
CARTER: In the front. You could write on a piece of paper and tape it on saying carbon monoxide if you?re scared.
CONRAD: I was thinking that but someone might see it before it happens.
CARTER: Well, wait, the generator is gonna be on because you?ll be passed out, so they?ll know you used carbon monoxide. Dead.
In the early evening
CARTER: So it?s time?
CONRAD: Oh, it?s been time.
CARTER: Are you gonna do it now?
CONRAD: I just don?t know how to leave them (his family), you know.
CARTER: Say you?re gonna go the store or something.
CONRAD: Like, I want them to know that I love them.
CARTER: They know. That?s one thing they definitely know. You?re over thinking.
CONRAD: I know I?m over thinking. I?ve been over thinking for a while now.
CARTER: I know. You just have to do it like you said. Are you gonna do it now?
CONRAD: I still haven?t left yet, ha ha.
CARTER: Why?
CONRAD: Leaving now.
CARTER:
Okay. You can do this.
CONRAD: Okay. I?m almost there.
