so like 3wks ago me and Matt got into a argument.
at this point we were definitely more than friends and fck buddies. he had stuff at my apartment and i had things at his place also..
so one day, i believe it was a Wednesday or Thursday,he told me to be dressed by a certain time, he was coming to get me and we were going out to dinner. So im nervous because he wasnt giving me any detail and usually when he gets like this he has something tricky up his sleeve... but still excited.
so im tryin to dress for anything. didnt want to be too dressy or too casual. so i end up putting on a nice dress shirt and nice fitted jeans. he picks me up like 20mins late... i shouldve known then something wasnt quite right because he's EXTREMELY punctual. so i get in the car and he looks frustrated.
i ask..."so now that im dressed and in the car, can you tell me where we are going?" trying to break the ice or start a convo.. i felt awkward.
he takes this huge breath like ive annoyed him
and is like "no, just sit back and ride. thanks."
now usually, hes sarcastic and i was waiting for him to add a smirk or comedic relief to lighten that statement. didnt happen.
so im trying to hold my inner Tasmanian Devil in at this point:
and im just like ok, ill give him a minute. obviously hes had a day and rather than try to dig to find out now, potentially aggravating him even more before dinner.. i just chilled out
the car ride was like 15 mins and aside from the radio, it was extremely quiet.
we finally pull up to Cheesecake Factory and im actually happy because i hadnt been there in a minute.
walk in and he tells the host that he has a reservation for 5. so im trying to figure out who's coming. we go sit and its just us two waiting for the other three and its still quiet. Now, im starting to get annoyed and its getting harder and harder to hold my tongue. so i just say.. "is there something wrong? did i upset you or something, because if this was how you were gonna act all night you couldve left me at home and i couldve ordered Chinese food."
hes looking at me like he wants to curse me out. im wishing he would try it. but all he says is "Yo, will you chill out?"
so to contain myself i get up and go to bathroom. im in the bathroom trying to make sure im not overreacting because I had NEVER seen him act like the way he was...so im trying to get my attitude together. i was in there for like 10 mins.. i go out to the table and theres two ladies and a man there. NEVER seen them before.
i get to the table. introduce myself. and the first lady who is older is like "Hi Nice to me you. Im ____, His mom.. this is his sister,___ and his dad,___.
i give the two ladies hugs and shake the dads hand. then sit down.
the sister's older than us and was like "we've heard so much about you! nice to finally meet you!" so i say "Well i hope that its been good things youve heard. and likewise."
we're just having a general conversation at this point.. he seems to be easing up a bit so im like thank god.
finally. the mom asks (she was a sweetheart) if you dont mind me asking, do you date guys?
his dad is sitting there like:
his sister:
me:
him:
so idk how to answer because idk how much hes told them about me and if hes told them anything about us... i didnt wanna give him away i felt like that should be a convo that he should have with them
so i just answer truthfully.. i said "yes mam. i do."
she then asks.. "do you like my son?" and at this point EVERYTHING becomes a fckn blur.. she was so sweet but very inquisitive, she just kept going mostly all dinner long... and i was waiting on him to step in a be the over protective asshole he usual is... but that guy didnt show up to this dinner.. i felt like he left me hanging... but i got through it (no thanks to him)
so dinners over... im pissed, i pack up most of my food (lost my appetite) i pay for my food and tell him im gonna step outside to take a phone call while they were still at the table talking... but i really just didnt want to sit there and risk getting asked more questions.
as im outside they all come out as they are walking to their car and they give me a hug and say "nice to finally meet you"
me and him get in the car. im livid.. im not saying anything, i just want him to drop me off at home.
this nigger decides he feels like being social now, cracking jokes, tickling etc
im not amused or moved by any of it
so hes like "whats up with you?" i say something like "the same thing that was wrong with you earlier"
idk what he did or said at this point because i noticed that we were pulling up to his house and i was NOT expecting that... i JUST KNEW he did not think i was staying at his place after this.
so i go in and sit down on the couch trying to weigh in my mind if im overeating or not and he says "im gonna go hop in the shower, you wanna find a movie for us to watch when i get out?
"ummmm.... i aint gon be here when you get out the shower, im goin home!"
he starts playing stupid. "WHHAATT? Why you acting like that? Fuck is wrong with you right now!?"
so remeber that Tasmanian devil i was trying to keep caged, well....
i unleashed everything... i told him how i thought it was kinda fucked up for him to suprise invite his parents, catching me completely off guard and then to sit there and let his mom tear me apart with questions why he sat in lala land.. any other time hes fckn superman, lastly i told him he was acting like a lil bitch and if i wanted to deal with some shit like this i could have gave into another nigga who was ctually out
lol my mistake...
after i said that, him:
tbh, i was turned on.. but i wasnt letting him know that or backing the fuck down... we're yelling over each other, nothings getting accomplished.
so i finally say "i just wanna go home! i dont wanna be here anymore!" and he says hes not taking me until we get to the bottom of it. so i just order an uber... when it pulls up i go outside to get in the car he comes to his front door and says "if you leave now, dont worry about coming back" i turned around and told him he had me fucked up... and got in the car and left... i got home and he tried calling like 2hrs later.. i ignored it he called like up until 4am and then i guess he fell asleep because the calls just stopped
then 4 or 5 days went by and we hadnt spoken
longest 5 days of my fckn life.. i missed him so much. but im a prideful person. especially when i know im right.. dont hold your breath thinking im gonna come to you or try to resolve with you... ill just deal with the shit until i dont feel it anymore (i know, its bad.. its something ive got to work on)
so yea hadnt spoke with him for a min on the last day.. he stopped by my job on my lunch and was like can we go sit down and talk.. if you say dont want to, i wont bother you again... so i was trying to act
like i didnt want to but inside i didnt want to lose him...
its the prideful bitch in me, im working on it SORRY!
so i give in and we go to a little coffee shop and sit to talk. he starts telling me that he had a rough day that day and he was planning on coming out to his family that night, so he was nervous and anxious but when he got to the table he froze up and didnt do what he planned to do...i told him that even if that was his plan it was still bogus to not let me in on it.. or give me a heads up because i was blindsided... he said he wanted it to be a surprise and that he thought it would make me happy. i made sure to explain to him that i was happy ans supportive in his choice if he was ready but just would like a heads up in dire situations like that and for him to not be an ass... he agreed and apologized for everything.. i apologized for blowing up and the whole "OUT" comment i made at his place. he gave me a hug and started telling me how hard the past couple of days were without us speaking or seeing each other and for the first time he told me he loved me. thats it.
