oh wait i never gave a normal response
I've become much more aware of who I am as a person, and much more confident. But I'm still changing.
I was sooooo lost up until I was 24? I literally had no fcking idea who I was. Then I found love blada-blada-blah and for a few years sought validation and purpose through love and others. Once that was over, and I was heartbroken and miserable and at my lowest point ever, I realized someone who doesn't value you will never do anything for you but waste precious time in your life. After that, I became career focused (present day) and recently I've realized work also isn't who I am. I've been pondering that popular quote lately 'What defines Us?'. And I've realized it's a combination of everything. Some people let their passions or children or jobs define them, but we're not just one thing -- and we shouldn't be. Life is literally full of endless possibilities, and I wish we could explore them all. While it's not possible, it is probable, so experiencing even 1% of what life offers is more than enough for one lifetime.
I really look forward to the future, because I'm going through a change right now. It's me realizing that Antonio at 27 won't be the same one at 21, 24, 30, 35, 37, 40, so on and so on. And I'm sooooooo thankful, because change is necessary, and invited. I've always known I've hated when my life became repetitive and stagnant, and that's who I think I'll always be.
