after only being there for 2 months.
im excited as hell, but the sucky part is that my coworkers who I love so much , who were there a couple years before i even arrived, interviewed for the same position, but there's only 2 spots open and I snagged one of them.
tomorrow the announcement is being made that it was given to me. it's such a mix of emotions because I am amazed at my progress but i don't want my coworkers to hate me. or even be jealous of me. i don't think i would give a fuck if i didn't love them so much.

it's bothering me to the point where i began to feel like i don't deserve it. and maybe shouldn't have interviewed for it.
i just got off the phone with my grandmother. she knocked some sense into me a bit. but i still cannot help but to feel some type of way. I'm not looking forward to the fake ass congratulations and stares. But I am not dimming my light for anyone either.