ok so where do i kinda begin?
i always find love and support here so its always easy to reveal whats going on with me. i've been dating a guy...
its not easy to get me in a space where i am vulnerable and transparent. i feel like he's the same way and he even told me that he didn't take me serious at first because it was a social media thing...
for awhile, i was letting niggas come into my life and i was not feeling fulfilled?which i believe has a lot to do with self worth and loving myself.
[soundcloud]
https://soundcloud.com/trapcry/hello[/soundcloud]
well i think for the most part, me and this guy have been doing well getting to know each other...
he's from out west.
we started talking via social media around august and then we exchanged numbers..
first it was casual texting... but the texting got heavy and that finally transitioned into facetiming everyday in october...
ya know... im not always sold on social media relationships, but this one was really consistent. i feel a mutual trust and understanding. he definitely makes me feel beautiful unlike any other person i've talked to or have been complimented by...
i love men who are intellectual, talented, goal oriented, and nasty as hell. lol... he's that and so much more... so anyway
fast forward to december, we originally planned to spend christmas together but because of work stuff we both had to do, we decided to spend new years together. he flew to me on the eastcoast in VA and we were together for a week.
us coming together literally embodied the mood of this song.
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https://soundcloud.com/trapcry/blahblahblah[/soundcloud]
i look taller in this pic, but i'm 5'11 and he's 6'2.
i felt fireworks. i felt truth. i felt happy. truly the same genuine guy i had been speaking to for months. we went to nyc for new years and actually had a falling out that night over different things. mainly because he was drunk af... then we had a romantic breakfast the next morning in dc. after our trip we spent the rest of the days at my home and that was a very domestic experience.
i haven't really talked about it with anyone, so this was a good outlet.
one of his favorite songs of mine lol. i would post the one we recorded together because we didn't finish it, but maybe i will one of these days... but this is his fave so...
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https://soundcloud.com/trapcry/no-way-out-feat-keithsweatshopnyc[/soundcloud]
i'm supposed to visit him out west in february, and we're going to try to do a visit once a month. no sex just yet, we'll see how it goes.
just thought i'd give the luvs and update... definitely a transition from some of my college stories. hope this inspires some love on the board.
