I have horrible anxiety, and panic attacks. I remember a few years ago I had an attack so bad I was shivering on the couch in fear

I went to the doctor some years ago because I was having horrible chest pains, so I immediately thought my heart was about to give out or something. They did tests and everything and were like "well your heart is healthy, it's probably anxiety related"
the doctor hooked me up with some pills.....I took the first one a day or two after because my anxiety was flaring up.....it fucked me up SO bad (the pill) I was so out of it I could barely walk

it was Lorazepam I believe....that one pill impaired me so badly it actually made my situation worse because I was scared as hell. It was at that point that I realized I couldn't do the medicine thing.....the pills they had for me were so strong and I didn't want to risk becoming addicted to them. So I made the decision to deal with it naturally....whenever I feel an attack coming on I immediately force myself to snap out of it and take deep breaths.
Dealing with it without the help of pills or medicine can be done even though it's hard at first. But I'm really proud of myself. I've learned to cope with it, and I'm not strung out on pills. I'm really happy to have made that decision.