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as a concerned friend .... I noticed that you kept asking myself and other members why nobody likes you.
So It definitely matters to you .... doesn't it?
And ... I think it even makes you sad ... am I right?
Especially when you say you're gonna leave and then don't

And I also get the feeling, it's not just on this board. I feel like nobody in your real life likes being around you much either.
Maybe ... your family doesn't really love you as much as they love each other?
They don't call out of the blue and maybe your parents wish they only had your siblings and treat you differently?
You feel a deep state of loneliness that won't go away, it's eating at you, and hitting "login" helps but still ... its very depressing

..... when's the last time you had a suicidal thought?