Woops. I meant to say this in here:
On "Saving all my love", part of it sounds like she's apologizing for fucking the love up because of her issues. Mentally and emotionally
it's pretty sick, actually
"sorry for my tardy, for a long time i was broken-hearted" means she couldn't commit to him because of her trust issues stemming from past relationships
"Waited ... laid my burdens down... complicated, i hesitated. "I'm out there" over the rainbow ... somewhere.
"out there" is what people always say when they've lost their minds a bit, or have lost their way. And the second verse literally beginswith more hope and another admission: "I'm medicated ... i am free to move forward"
she's spilling so much tea on this album, however u decide to interpret it, and some songs aren't about just her experiences. Some songs will be out other subjects and things's witnessed or drawn inspiration from.