I think her saying ?As I got older? was her acknowledging that she once did similar things in her career but when she got older mentally, not by age (it?s a difference) she has new perspective. I think her ?older? was becoming a wife & step-mom obviously your priorities will change. I personally loved the shoot! Nicki has been hit or miss lately to me & she?s a fav but I don?t stan with delusions it is what it is with me.