I used to be afraid of aging because I don't many black gay men past the age of fifty and didn't see that far into my future as a reality. Not any suicidal mess, just some growing pains and a fear of what may or may not come. Around 25/26, I realized that I spent most of my adult life learning virtually everything about this "lifestyle" through experiences and the future won't be that much different. You live and you learn, you grow, you fall in and out of love etc;
I'll just take it one day at a time like I've been doing.