So I know this sounds crazy but the universe orchestrated everyfucking thing to get me to this moment right now.
I discovered I have a twin flame
and everything that has happened has been to prepare me for this moment and push me further
(briefly)
I met him in 2007 thru the mormon church he was a missionary......
we have a few study sessions and we had instant connection like the other nigga he was with just evaporated and it was just us bonding
and they switched the missionaries out so he was sent to a different area
we see each other at the grocery store while i was with my mom and we ran and hugged each other had my mom looking like

then i was at a conference and seen him again and we ran and hugged each other again and held hands like a couple not caring what anyone thought at that conference

then he gave me his church email and our emails were brief but encouraging and we exchanged i love yous in those emails.... we lost contact and he went back to his home in tonga (thats where hes from ) i reach out to the church to find him ...dead end....facebook in 2008 nuthin......then in 2016 i see him and his wifes profile IN ALASKA and i message to say who i was ..no response..but i said wait a minute he has been here the whole time??????
i guess he just doesnt want to talk to me now that hes been married and stuff
i let it go
so me and my mom say we moving to hawaii she goes and comes back a month later saying she hates it
then we plan on moving back to vermont she gets sick and passes
then i start saving for the move on my own to vermont and and when im in a place where i can make it
I lose two of my jobs in december 2017

I get a job
and after i get the job there is the internal offer to relocate
i apply get it
relocate
housing subsidized
relocation bonus
and after a month of working there HE WALKS THE FUCK IN MY JOB i lost it at work hunty
so naturally, we exchange info talk catch up hang out and the past 6 months i havent felt so much love and wholeness ever in my life he is married but i call him my husband
he told his wife and the fam that Im apart of it and they are like

where he come from
This is the deepest and most resonant purest connection ive had with anyone ever
I started making plans we talk about buying houses together running a business together
living in tonga together
and his wife is currently the breadwinner and apparently he feels he needs to make some moves
so hes starting an import business in tonga now when he told me about it he had no real direction for it
and as we are getting closer i feel he wants to get away we were beefin about something but when he was leaving like noooooone of that mattered we were both pouring our hearts out to each other at that airport
so when he left
I said why the fuck do we feel this way y am i planning my life with him how do you define this type of thing
And thats what lead me to twin flame..............
everything that embodies that fits us to a tee
but
the real deal here is that now that this type of thing has beeen shown to me its a call to action to develop more spiritually
Prayer
meditation
fasting
getting in touch with the divine more
pulling away from the 3d world that our mind gets trapped in sometimes
healing past hurts
clearing negative energies
activating your chakras
all of these things are needed for me and being shown something as dynamic as the twin flame union and the separation from it was the catalyst to spark this awakening
so of course im not the only one with these questions hes wondering as well why he feels the way he does
its not my good looks or charm and i mean that not as shade to myself or from a place of low self esteem but to illustrate that whatever it is isnt an ego or carnal thing its real and its fucking deep
and hes wondering why hes been sitting up here for years with a wife and a kid and why he never felt that with her
or how after spending time with me when it goes back home and his energy is giving

with his wife
so he says you know what deuces let me figure this shit out
but in knowing that we are connected in this way my spiritual health is going to affect him as well
and once he tears down the mask of being in societal norms he will be in a better place as well
but his happiness is mine
but when i think back to how all this lead me to this point
all of my experiences were for a purpose
and its amazing how the universe works